She was glad he was away; yes, heart glad!  And yet, if this minute she could only have seen him coming round the Crescent, have met his smile, and the firm, warm clasp of his hand—­

For an instant there rose up in her one of those wild, rebellious outcries against fate, when to have to waste years of this brief life of ours, in the sort of semi-existence that living is, apart from the treasure of the heart and delight of the eyes, seems so cruelly, cruelly hard!

“Miss Hilary.”

She started, and “put herself under lock and key” immediately.  “Miss Hilary; you do look so tired!”

“Do I?  Then we will go and sit down in this baker’s shop, and get rested and fed.  We cannot afford to wear ourselves out, you know.  We have a great deal to do to-day.”

More indeed, than she calculated, for they walked up one street and down another, investigating at least twenty lodgings before any appeared which seemed fit for them.  Yet some place must be found where Johanna’s poor, tired head could rest that night.  At last, completely exhausted, with that oppressive exhaustion which seems to crush mind as well as body after a day’s wandering in London.  Hilary’s courage began to ebb.  Oh for an arm to lean on, a voice to listen for, a brave heart to come to her side, saying, “Do not be afraid, there are two of us!” And she yearned, with an absolutely sick yearning such as only a woman who now and then feels the utter helplessness of her womanhood can know, for the only arm she cared to lean on, the only voice dear enough to bring her comfort, the only heart that she felt she could trust.

Poor Hilary!  And yet why pity her?  To her three alternatives could but happen:  were Robert Lyon true to her she would be his entirely and devotedly, to the end of her days; did he forsake her, she would forgive him should he die, she would be faithful to him eternally.  Love of this kind may know anguish, but not the sort of anguish that lesser and weaker loves do.  If it is certain of nothing else, it can always be certain of itself.

    “Its will is strong;
    ’It suffers; but it can not suffer long.”

And even in its utmost pangs is an underlying peace which often approaches to absolute joy.

Hilary roused herself, and bent her mind steadily on lodgings till she discovered one from the parlor of which you could see the trees of Burton Crescent and hear the sound of Saint Pancras’s clock.

“I think we may do here—­at least for a while,” said she cheerfully; and then Elizabeth heard her inquiring if an extra bedroom could be had if necessary.

There was only one small attic.  “Ascott never could put up with that,” said Hilary, half to herself.  Then suddenly—­“I think I will see Ascott before I decide.  Elizabeth, will you go with me, or remain here?”

“I’ll go with you, if you please, Miss Hilary.”

“If you please,” sounded not unlike, “if I please,” and Elizabeth had gloomed over a little.  “Is Mr. Ascott to live with us?”