O to resume the joys of the soldier!
To feel the presence of a brave commanding officer—to
feel his sympathy!
To behold his calmness—to be warm’d
in the rays of his smile!
To go to battle—to hear the bugles play
and the drums beat!
To hear the crash of artillery—to see the
glittering of the bayonets
and musket-barrels in the
sun!
To see men fall and die and not complain!
To taste the savage taste of blood—to be
so devilish!
To gloat so over the wounds and deaths of the enemy.
O the whaleman’s joys! O I cruise my old
cruise again!
I feel the ship’s motion under me, I feel the
Atlantic breezes fanning me,
I hear the cry again sent down from the mast-head,
There—she blows!
Again I spring up the rigging to look with the rest—we
descend,
wild with excitement,
I leap in the lower’d boat, we row toward our
prey where he lies,
We approach stealthy and silent, I see the mountainous
mass,
lethargic, basking,
I see the harpooneer standing up, I see the weapon
dart from his
vigorous arm;
O swift again far out in the ocean the wounded whale,
settling,
running to windward, tows
me,
Again I see him rise to breathe, we row close again,
I see a lance driven through his side, press’d
deep, turn’d in the wound,
Again we back off, I see him settle again, the life
is leaving him fast,
As he rises he spouts blood, I see him swim in circles
narrower and
narrower, swiftly cutting
the water—I see him die,
He gives one convulsive leap in the centre of the
circle, and then
falls flat and still in the
bloody foam.
O the old manhood of me, my noblest joy of all!
My children and grand-children, my white hair and
beard,
My largeness, calmness, majesty, out of the long stretch
of my life.
O ripen’d joy of womanhood! O happiness
at last!
I am more than eighty years of age, I am the most
venerable mother,
How clear is my mind—how all people draw
nigh to me!
What attractions are these beyond any before? what
bloom more
than the bloom of youth?
What beauty is this that descends upon me and rises
out of me?
O the orator’s joys!
To inflate the chest, to roll the thunder of the voice
out from the
ribs and throat,
To make the people rage, weep, hate, desire, with
yourself,
To lead America—to quell America with a
great tongue.
O the joy of my soul leaning pois’d on itself,
receiving identity through
materials and loving them,
observing characters and absorbing them,
My soul vibrated back to me from them, from sight,
hearing, touch,
reason, articulation, comparison,
memory, and the like,
The real life of my senses and flesh transcending
my senses and flesh,
My body done with materials, my sight done with my
material eyes,
Proved to me this day beyond cavil that it is not
my material eyes
which finally see,
Nor my material body which finally loves, walks, laughs,
shouts,
embraces, procreates.


