And Mrs. Friend found herself gently pushed out of the room.  She went to her own in some bewilderment.  After having been immured for some three years in close attendance on an invalided woman shut up in two rooms, she was like a person walking along a dark road and suddenly caught in the glare of motor lamps.  Brought into contact with such a personality as Helena Pitstone promised to be, she felt helpless and half blind.  A survival, too; for this world into which she had now stepped was one quite new to her.  Yet when she had first shut herself up in Lancaster Gate she had never been conscious of any great difference between herself and other women or girls.  She had lived a very quiet life in a quiet home before the war.  Her father, a hard-working Civil Servant on a small income, and her mother, the daughter of a Wesleyan Minister, had brought her up strictly, yet with affection.  The ways of the house were old-fashioned, dictated by an instinctive dislike of persons who went often to theatres and dances, of women who smoked, or played bridge, or indulged in loud, slangy talk.  Dictated, too, by a pervading “worship of ancestors,” of a preceding generation of plain evangelical men and women, whose books survived in the little house, and whose portraits hung upon its walls.

Then, in the first year of the war, she had married a young soldier, the son of family friends, like-minded with her own people, a modest, inarticulate fellow, who had been killed at Festubert.  She had loved him—­oh, yes, she had loved him.  But sometimes, looking back, she was troubled to feel how shadowy he had become to her.  Not in the region of emotion.  She had pined for his fondness all these years; she pined for it still.  But intellectually.  If he had lived, how would he have felt towards all these strange things that the war had brought about—­the revolutionary spirit everywhere, the changes come and coming?  She did not know; she could not imagine.  And it troubled her that she could not find any guidance for herself in her memories of him.

And as to the changes in her own sex, they seemed to have all come about while she was sitting in a twilight room reading aloud to an old woman.  Only a few months after her husband’s death her parents had both died, and she found herself alone in the world, and almost penniless.  She was not strong enough for war work, the doctor said, and so she had let the doors of Lancaster Gate close upon her, only looking for something quiet and settled—­even if it were a settled slavery.

After which, suddenly, just about the time of the Armistice, she had become aware that nothing was the same; that the women and the girls—­so many of them in uniform!—­that she met in the streets when she took her daily walk—­were new creatures; not attractive to her as a whole, but surprising and formidable, because of the sheer life there was in them.  And she herself began to get restive; to realize that she was not herself so very