I am to be forced to spend my few days of freedom
sitting in judgment over thievish tramps of Jews, like
a prisoner in a fortress. I hope Gerlach can
free me; otherwise I shall never speak to him again.
Tomorrow I shall at once drop you a line from Magdeburg,
to tell you how I succeed. * * * The people have abandoned
the dike-captain conspiracy against me; the Town Councillor
says he will not press it at all. He chattered
to me for hours about his land-tax commission, in
which his anxiety drove him to rage against his own
flesh, and also, unfortunately, against ours.
Our chief misfortune is the cowardly servility towards
those above and the chasing after popularity below,
which characterize our provincial councillor; consequently
public business, the chase, land-tax, etc., are
all deleteriously affected. It is due principally
to the fact that he is grossly ignorant and bungling
in affairs, and is, therefore, for better, for worse,
in the hands of his democratic circuit secretary,
to whom he never dares to show his teeth; and, despite
all that, the fellow wears trousers, has been a soldier,
and is a nobleman. La-Croix is district-attorney
at Madgeburg, withal, and he, too, must help me to
sneak out of it. It is still impossible for me
to acquiesce in the notion that we are to be separated
all winter, and I am sick at heart whenever I think
of it; only now do I truly feel how very, very much
you and the babies are part of myself, and how
you fill my being. That probably explains why
it is that I appear cold to all except you, even to
mother; if God should impose on me the terrible affliction
of losing you, I feel, so far as my feelings can at
this moment grasp and realize such a wilderness of
desolation, that I would then cling so to your parents
that mother would have to complain of being persecuted
with love. But away with all imaginary misery;
there is enough in reality. Let us now earnestly
thank the Lord that we are all together, even though
separated by three hundred and fifty miles, and let
us experience the sweetness of knowing that we love
each other very much, and can tell each other so.
To me it is always like ingratitude to God that we
choose to live apart so long, and are not together
while He makes it possible for us; but He will show
us His will; all may turn out differently; the Chambers
may be dissolved, possibly very quickly, as the majority
is probably opposed to the Ministry. Manteuffel
was resolved upon it in that event, and it seems that
Radowitz, since he is Minister, has approached him,
and, in general, wants to change his politics again.
Best love to all. Farewell. God keep you.
Your most faithful v.B.
Berlin, April 28, ’51.
My Dear Sweetheart,—Mother’s premonition that I would remain long away has, unfortunately, proved correct this time. * * * The King was the first to propose my nomination, and that at once, as a real delegate to the Diet; his plan has, of course, encountered much opposition, and has finally been so modified that Rochow will, it is true, remain Minister at Petersburg, whither he is to return in two months, but meanwhile, provisionally, he is commissioned to Frankfort, and I am to accompany him, with the assurance that, on his leaving for Petersburg, I shall be his successor. But this last is between ourselves.


