came to him that he would plead again; and then it
occurred to him that he could push the old man aside
and make his escape; then that he could hang on to
something in some way when the old man caught hold
of him and not fall with him. Nobody could blame
him for this. Through all these thoughts he saw
shudderingly what awaited him if he escaped and the
courts should seize him. It was better to die
now. But on the other side of death something
still more terrible awaited him. He looked back
and lived his whole life through in a moment to see
if the eternal Judge would find pardon for him.
His thoughts became confused, he was now here, now
there, and had forgotten why. He saw the mist
gathering in which the workman had disappeared and
at the same time he looked into the bright windows
of the Red Eagle inn where he heard voices: “There
he comes—now the fun will begin.”
He stood on the street corners and counted, and the
boards beneath Apollonius would not break, nor the
ropes above him; he stood before his wife and, leaning
over little Annie’s dying bedside, said, “Do
you know why you are frightened?” and reached
out his hand to give the fatal blow; also he lay as
if in a fever dream before his father and brooded
in anxious, terrible fear. Then it was as if
he had come to himself again and unending time had
elapsed between the moment when his father began to
count and the present. Everything must be all
right by now, only he must try to recall whether he
had pushed his father aside and thus made his escape
or whether he had held back when his father attempted
to drag him down with him. But there he still
lay, and there his father still sat. He heard
him count “nine” and stop. Consciousness
forsook him completely. The old gentleman had
in truth ceased to count. His sharp ear heard
a hurrying footstep on the stairs. He seized
hold of his son and held fast as if to be sure that
he did not escape him. So cold and lifeless was
the son’s body that the father knew it was not
necessary to hold him; he must be unconscious.
A new uneasiness awoke in him. If the son had
lost consciousness, he must be hidden from strange
eyes, for this unconsciousness might in some way arouse
suspicion. He arose and turned away from the
window in the direction of the newcomer. He was
undecided whether he would stand before the window
covering it with his body or go forward to meet the
intruder.
[Illustration: SCHNORR VON CAROLSFELD JOSIAH HEARS THE LAW]
The journeyman whom he had sent to Brambach, for it was he who was approaching in such haste, coughed as he came up the stairs. He could keep him back from the scaffolding and most likely prevent him from seeing that somebody was lying there if he went to meet him; if he stood in front of the window it was probable that he would not be able to cover the whole space. The old gentleman felt now for the first time how his strength had been broken by what he had gone through that day. The journeyman, however, observed nothing unusual as Herr Nettenmair, leaning on the rafters of the stairs, barred the way.


