Ah, one laughs, you see; one can’t help it now
and then. But at the real and rising feeling of
the people by night and day one doesn’t laugh
indeed. I hear and see with the deepest sympathy
of soul, on the contrary. I love the Italians,
too, and none the less that something of the triviality
and innocent vanity of children abounds in them.
A delightful and most welcome letter was the last
you sent me, my dearest friend. Your bridal visit
must have charmed you, and I am glad you had the gladness
of witnessing some of the happiness of your friend,
Mrs. Acton Tyndal, you who have such quick
sympathies, and to whom the happiness of a friend
is a gain counted in your own. The swan’s
shadow is something in a clear water. For poor
Mrs.——, if she is really, as you
say Mrs. Tyndal thinks, pining in an access of literary
despondency, why that only proves to me that
she is not happy otherwise, that her life and soul
are not sufficiently filled for her woman’s need.
I cannot believe of any woman that she can think of
fame first. A woman of genius may be absorbed,
indeed, in the exercise of an active power, engrossed
in the charges of the course and the combat; but this
is altogether different to a vain and bitter longing
for prizes, and what prizes, oh, gracious heavens!
The empty cup of cold metal! so cold, so
empty to a woman with a heart. So, if your friend’s
belief is true, still more deeply do I pity that other
friend, who is supposed to be unhappy from such a
cause. A few days ago I saw a bride of my own
family, Mrs. Reynolds, Arlette Butler, who married
Captain Reynolds some five months since.... Many
were her exclamations at seeing me. She declared
that such a change was never seen, I was so transfigured
with my betterness: ’Oh, Ba, it is quite
wonderful indeed!’ We had been calculated on,
during her three months in Rome, as a ‘piece
of resistance,’ and it was a disappointment to
find us here in a corner with the salt. Just
as I was praised was poor Flush criticised. Flush
has not recovered from the effects yet of the summer
plague of fleas, and his curls, though growing, are
not grown. I never saw him in such spirits nor
so ugly; and though Robert and I flatter ourselves
upon ‘the sensible improvement,’ Arlette
could only see him with reference to the past, when
in his Wimpole Street days he was sleek and over fat,
and she cried aloud at the loss of his beauty.
Then we have had [another] visitor, Mr. Hillard, an
American critic, who reviewed me in [the old] world,
and so came to view me in the new, a very intelligent
man, of a good, noble spirit. And Miss Boyle,
ever and anon, comes at night, at nine o’clock,
to catch us at our hot chestnuts and mulled wine,
and warm her feet at our fire; and a kinder, more
cordial little creature, full of talent and accomplishment,
never had the world’s polish on it. Very
amusing, too, she is, and original, and a good deal
of laughing she and Robert make between them.


