was a great discovery. Absurdly easy to raise
yourself to be the idol of a crowd that fancies itself
canny! Incredibly easy! I used to take their
part against the works-manager as often as I could;
he was a fiend; he hated me; but then I was a fiend,
too, and I hated him more. I used often to come
on at six in the morning, when they did, and ‘sign
on’. It isn’t really signing on now
at all; there’s a clock dial and a whole machine
for catching you out. They loved to see me doing
that. And I worked the lathes sometimes, just
for a bit, just to show that I wasn’t ashamed
to work.
Etc.... All that sentimental
twaddle. It pleased them. And if any really
vigorous-minded girl had dared to say it was sentimental
twaddle, there would have been a crucifixion or something
of the sort in the cloak-rooms. The mob’s
always the same. But what pleased them far more
than anything was me knowing them by their Christian
names. Not all, of course; still, hundreds of
them. Marvellous feats of memorising I did!
I used to go about muttering under my breath:
’Winnie, wart on left hand, Winnie, wart on left
hand, wart on left hand, Winnie.’ You see?
And I’ve sworn at them—not often;
it wouldn’t do, naturally. But there was
scarcely a woman there that I couldn’t simply
blast in two seconds if I felt like it. On the
other hand, I assure you I could be very tender.
I was surprised how tender I could be, now and then,
in my little office. They’d tell me anything—sounds
sentimental, but they would—and some of
them had no more notion that there’s such a
thing on earth as propriety than a monkey has.
I thought I knew everything before I went to the Clyde
valley. Well, I didn’t.” Concepcion
looked at G.J. “You know you’re very
innocent, G.J., compared to me.”
“I should hope so!” said G.J., impenetrably.
“What do you think of it all?” she demanded
in a fresh tone, leaning a little towards him.
He replied: “I’m impressed.”
He was, in fact, very profoundly impressed; but he
had to illustrate the hardness in himself which she
had revealed to him. (He wondered whether the members
of the Lechford Committee really did credit him with
having dethroned a couple of chairmen. The idea
was new to his modesty. Perhaps he had been underestimating
his own weight on the committee. No doubt he
had.) All constraint was now dissipated between Concepcion
and himself. They were behaving to each other
as though their intimacy had never been interrupted
for a single week. She amazed him, sitting there
in the purple stockings and the affronting gown, and
he admired. Her material achievement alone was
prodigious. He pictured her as she rose in the
winter dark and in the summer dawn to go to the works
and wrestle with so much incalculable human nature
and so many complex questions of organisation, day
after day, week after week, month after month, for
nearly eighteen months. She had kept it up; that
was the point. She had shown what she was made
of, and what she was made of was unquestionably marvellous.