He was the Atlas supporting a vast world a thousand times more complex than any problem of architecture.  He wondered how he did it.  But he did do it, alone; and he kept on doing it.  Let him shirk the burden, and not a world but an entire universe would crumble.  If he told Lois that he was going to leave her, she would collapse; she would do dreadful things.  He was indispensable not only at home but professionally.  All was upon his shoulders and upon nobody else’s.  He was bound, he was a prisoner, he had no choice, he was performing his highest duty, he was fulfilling the widest usefulness of which he was capable ...  Besides, supposing he did go insane and shirk the burden, they would all say that he had been influenced by Lucas’s uniform—­the mere sight of the uniform!—­like a girl!  He could not stand that, because it would be true.  Not that he would ever admit its truth!  He recalled Lucas’s tact in refraining from any suggestion, even a jocular suggestion, that he, George, ought also to be in uniform.  Lucas was always tactful.  Be damned to his tact!  And the too eager excuses made by Lois in his behalf also grated on his susceptibility.  He had no need of excuses.  The woman was taciturn by nature, and yet she was constantly saying too much!  And did any of the three of them—­Lois, Laurencine, and Lucas—­really appreciate the war?  They did not.  They could not envisage it.  Lucas was wearing uniform solely in obedience to an instinct.

At this point the cycle of his reflections was completed, and began again.  He thought of all the occupied bedrooms....  Thus, in the dark, warm night the contents of his mind revolved endlessly, with extreme tedium and extreme distress, and each moment his mood became more morbid.

An occasional sound of traffic penetrated into the room,—­strangely mournful, a reminder of the immense and ineffable melancholy of a city which could not wholly lose itself in sleep.  The window lightened.  He could descry his wife’s portable clock on the night-table.  A quarter to four.  Turning over savagely in bed, he muttered:  “My night’s done for.  And nearly five hours to breakfast.  Good God!” The cycle resumed, and was enlarged.

At intervals he imagined that he dozed; he did doze, if it is possible while you are dozing to know that you doze.  His personality separated into two personalities, if not more.  He was on a vast plain, and yet he was not there, and the essential point of the scene was that he was not there.  Thousands and tens of thousands of men stood on this plain, which had no visible boundaries.  A roll-call was proceeding.  A resounding and mysterious voice called out names, and at each name a man stepped briskly from the crowds and saluted and walked away.  But there was no visible person to receive the salute; the voice was bodiless.  George became increasingly apprehensive; he feared a disaster, yet he could not believe that it would occur.  It did occur.  Before it arrived he knew that it was arriving.  The voice cried solemnly: