consideration had made him look into himself, as well
as round himself, to things without: that he
found the mind of man, if it was but once brought
to reflect upon the state of universal life, and how
little this world was concerned in its true felicity,
was perfectly capable of making a felicity for itself,
fully satisfying to itself, and suitable to its own
best ends and desires, with but very little assistance
from the world; that air to breathe in, food to sustain
life, clothes for warmth, and liberty for exercise,
in order to health, completed, in his opinion, all
that the world could do for us: and though the
greatness, the authority, the riches, and the pleasures,
which some enjoyed in the world, and which he had enjoyed
his share of, had much in them that was agreeable
to us, yet he observed, that all those things chiefly
gratified the coarsest of our affections; such as
our ambition, our particular pride, our avarice, our
vanity, and our sensuality; all which were, indeed,
the mere product of the worst part of man, were in
themselves crimes, and had in them the seeds of all
manner of crimes; but neither were related to, or concerned
with, any of those virtues that constituted us wise
men, or of those graces which distinguished us as
Christians; that being now deprived of all the fancied
felicity which he enjoyed in the full exercise of all
those vices, he said, he was at leisure to look upon
the dark side of them, where he found all manner of
deformity; and was now convinced, that virtue only
makes a man truly wise, rich, and great, and preserves
him in the way to a superior happiness in a future
state; and in this, he said, they were more happy
in their banishment, than all their enemies were,
who had the full possession of all the wealth and power
that they (the banished) had left behind them.
“Nor, Sir,” said he, “do I bring
my mind to this politically, by the necessity of my
circumstances, which some call miserable; but if I
know any thing of myself, I would not go back, no
not though my master, the czar, should call me, and
offer to reinstate me in all my former grandeur; I
say, I would no more go back to it, than I believe
my soul, when it shall be delivered from this prison
of the body, and has had a taste of the glorious state
beyond life, would come back to the gaol of flesh
and blood it is now enclosed in, and leave Heaven to
deal in the dirt and grime of human affairs.”
He spake this with so much warmth in his temper, so
much earnestness and motion of his spirits, which
were apparent in his countenance, that it was evident
it was the true sense of his soul; and indeed there
was no room to doubt his sincerity.
I told him, I once thought myself a kind of a monarch
in my old station, of which I had given him an account,
but that I thought he was not a monarch only, but
a great conqueror; for that he that has got a victory
over his own exorbitant desires, and has the absolute
dominion over himself, and whose reason entirely governs
his will, is certainly greater than he that conquers
a city. “But, my lord,” said I, “shall
I take the liberty to ask you a question?”—“With
all my heart,” said he. “If the door
of your liberty was opened,” said I, “would
not you take hold of it to deliver yourself from this
exile?”