The German Classics of the Nineteenth and Twentieth Centuries, Volume 08 eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 633 pages of information about The German Classics of the Nineteenth and Twentieth Centuries, Volume 08.

The German Classics of the Nineteenth and Twentieth Centuries, Volume 08 eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 633 pages of information about The German Classics of the Nineteenth and Twentieth Centuries, Volume 08.

“Who knows if she may not thus suddenly think of you?  One cannot tell why she should, and yet perhaps she is thinking of you at this very moment.  For in this place she promised to be your protectress whenever you came to her,—­it was yonder by the stunted willows.  Why is it, that only the trees remain to be seen?  Why is not a word like a tree, something which stands firmly, something which one can hold to.  Yes, one can, if one will.  Then one is as well off as a tree—­and what an honorable farmer’s wife says, is firm and lasting.  She, too, wept because she had to go away from her native place, although she had been married and away from it for a long time.  And she has children of her own—­one of them is called John.”

Amrei was standing by the tree where they had picked the berries.  She laid her hand upon the trunk and said: 

“You—­why don’t you go away, too?  Why don’t people tell you to emigrate?  Perhaps for you, too, it would be better elsewhere.  But, to be sure, you are too large—­you did not place yourself here, and who knows if you would not die in some other place.  You can only be hewn down, not transplanted.  Nonsense!  I also had to leave my home.  If it were my father, I should be obliged to go with him—­he would not need to ask me.  And he who asks too much, goes astray.  No one can advise me in this matter, not even Marianne.  And, after all, with my uncle, it’s like this:  ‘I am doing you a good turn, and you must repay me.’  If he’s severe with me, and with Damie, because he’s awkward, and we have to run away, where in this wide, strange world are we to go?  Here everybody knows us, and every hedge, every tree has a familiar face.  ’You know me, don’t you?’ she said, looking up at the tree.  ’Oh, if you could but speak!  God created you too—­why cannot you speak?  You knew my father and mother so well—­why cannot you tell me what they would advise me to do?’ Oh, dear father!  Oh, dear mother!  It grieves me so to have to go away!  I have nothing here, and hardly anybody, and yet I feel as if I were being driven out of a warm bed into the cold snow.  Is this deep sadness that I feel a sign that I ought not to go?  Is it the true voice of conscience, or is it but a foolish fear?  Oh, good Heaven, I do not know!  If only a voice from Heaven would come now and tell me!”

The child trembled with inward terror, and the sense of life’s difficulties for the first time arose vividly within her.  And again she went on, half-thinking, half-talking to herself—­but this time in a more decided way: 

“If I were alone, I know for certain that I should not go; I should stay here.  For it would grieve me too much.  Alone I could get along.  Good—­remember that; of one thing, then, you are sure—­as to yourself you are decided.  But what foolish thoughts are these!  How can I imagine that I am alone, and without Damie?  I am not alone—­I belong to Damie, and he belongs to me.  And for Damie it would be better

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