fathers. Can you imagine that he that demands
L5000 besides the reversion of an estate will like
bare L4000? Such miracles are seldom seen, and
you must prepare to suffer a strange persecution unless
you grow conformable; therefore consider what you do,
’tis the part of a friend to advise you.
I could say a great deal to this purpose, and tell
you that ’tis not discreet to refuse a good offer,
nor safe to trust wholly to your own judgment in your
disposal. I was never better provided in my life
for a grave admonishing discourse. Would you
had heard how I have been catechized for you, and seen
how soberly I sit and answer to interrogatories.
Would you think that upon examination it is found
that you are not an indifferent person to me?
But the mischief is, that what my intentions or resolutions
are, is not to be discovered, though much pains has
been taken to collect all scattering circumstances;
and all the probable conjectures that can be raised
from thence has been urged, to see if anything would
be confessed. And all this done with so much
ceremony and compliment, so many pardons asked for
undertaking to counsel or inquire, and so great kindness
and passion for all my interests professed, that I
cannot but take it well, though I am very weary on’t.
You are spoken of with the reverence due to a person
that I seem to like, and for as much as they know of
you, you do deserve a very good esteem; but your fortune
and mine can never agree, and, in plain terms, we
forfeit our discretions and run wilfully upon our own
ruins if there be such a thought. To all this
I make no reply, but that if they will needs have
it that I am not without kindness for you, they must
conclude withal that ’tis no part of my intention
to ruin you, and so the conference breaks up for that
time. All this is [from] my friend, that is not
yours; and the gentleman that came upstairs in a basket,
I could tell him that he spends his breath to very
little purpose, and has but his labour for his pains.
Without his precepts my own judgment would preserve
me from doing anything that might be prejudicial to
you or unjustifiable to the world; but if these be
secured, nothing can alter the resolution I have taken
of settling my whole stock of happiness upon the affection
of a person that is dear to me, whose kindness I shall
infinitely prefer before any other consideration whatsoever,
and I shall not blush to tell you that you have made
the whole world beside so indifferent to me that,
if I cannot be yours, they may dispose of me how they
please. Henry Cromwell will be as acceptable to
me as any one else. If I may undertake to counsel,
I think you shall do well to comply with your father
as far as possible, and not to discover any aversion
to what he desires further than you can give reason
for. What his disposition may be I know not;
but ’tis that of many parents to judge their
children’s dislikes to be an humour of approving
nothing that is chosen for them, which many times
makes them take up another of denying their children
all they choose for themselves. I find I am in
the humour of talking wisely if my paper would give
me leave. ’Tis great pity here is room
for no more but—


