The Top of the World eBook

Ethel May Dell
This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 446 pages of information about The Top of the World.

The Top of the World eBook

Ethel May Dell
This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 446 pages of information about The Top of the World.

Later in the evening, a small packet was brought to her which she found to contain some money in notes wrapped in a slip of paper on which was scrawled a few words.

“I have done my best with young G., but he is rather out of hand for the present.  I enclose the ‘loan.’  Just put it back, and don’t worry any more.  Yours, D. K.”

She put the packet away with a great relief at her heart.  That danger then, had been averted.  There yet remained a chance for Guy.  He was not—­still he was not—­quite beyond redemption.  If only—­ah, if only—­she could have gone to Burke with the whole story!  But Burke had become a stranger to her.  She had begun to wonder if she had ever really known him.  His implacability frightened her almost more than his terrible vindictiveness.  She felt that she could never again turn to him with confidence.

That silence that lay between them was like an ever-widening gulf severing them ever more and more completely.  She believed that they would remain strangers for the rest of their lives.  Very curiously, those three words which she had read upon the tree served to strengthen this conviction.  They were, indeed, to her as a message from the dead.  The man who had written them had ceased to exist.  Guy might have written them in the old days, but his likeness to Guy was no more.  She saw them both now with a distinctness that was almost cruel—­the utter weakness of the one, the merciless strength of the other.  And in the bitterness of her soul she marvelled that either of them had ever managed to reach her heart.

That could never be so again, so she told herself.  The power to love had been wrested from her.  The object of her love had turned into a monstrous demon of jealousy from which now she shrank more and more—­though she might never escape.  Yes, she had loved them both, and still her compassion lingered pitifully around the thought of Guy.  But for Burke she had only a shrinking that almost amounted to aversion.  He had slain her love.  She even believed she was beginning to hate him.

She dreaded the prospect of another long day spent at Brennerstadt.  It was the day of the diamond draw, too.  The place would be a seething tumult.  She was so unutterably tired.  She thought with a weary longing of Blue Hill Farm.  At least she would find a measure of peace there, though healing were denied her.  This place had become hateful to her, an inferno of vice and destruction.  She yearned to leave it.

Something of this yearning she betrayed on the following morning when Burke told her that he was making arrangements to leave by the evening train for Ritzen.

“Can’t we go sooner?” she said.

He looked at her as if surprised by the question.  “There is a train at midday,” he said.  “But it is not a good time for travelling.”

“Oh, let us take it!” she said feverishly.  “Please let us take it!  We might get back to the farm by to-night then.”

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