“I am only sorry.”

He bent over and kissed her hand lingeringly.  It was a tragic moment for him, poor lad!  He turned and went blindly out the door and down the dark stone staircase.  It was rather anticlimax, after all that, to have Peter discover he had gone without his hat and toss it down to him a flight below.

All the frankness had gone out of the relationship between Harmony and Peter.  They made painful efforts at ease, talked during the meal of careful abstractions, such as Jimmy, and Peter’s proposed trip to Semmering, avoided each other’s eyes, ate little or nothing.  Once when Harmony passed Peter his coffee-cup their fingers touched, and between them they dropped the cup.  Harmony was flushed and pallid by turns, Peter wretched and silent.

Out of the darkness came one ray of light.  Stewart had wired from Semmering, urging Peter to come.  He would be away for two days.  In two days much might happen; Dr. Jennings might come or some one else.  In two days some of the restraint would have worn off.  Things would never be the same, but they would be forty-eight hours better.

Peter spent the early part of the evening with Jimmy, reading aloud to him.  After the child had dropped to sleep he packed a valise for the next day’s journey and counted out into an envelope half of the money he had with him.  This he labeled “Household Expenses” and set it up on his table, leaning against his collar-box.  There was no sign of Harmony about.  The salon was dark except for the study lamp turned down.

Peter was restless.  He put on his shabby dressing-gown and worn slippers and wandered about.  The Portier had brought coal to the landing; Peter carried it in.  He inspected the medicine bottles on Jimmy’s stand and wrote full directions for every emergency he could imagine.  Then, finding it still only nine o’clock, he turned up the lamp in the salon and wrote an exciting letter from Jimmy’s father, in which a lost lamb, wandering on the mountain-side, had been picked up by an avalanche and carried down into the fold and the arms of the shepherd.  And because he stood so in loco parentis, and because it seemed so inevitable that before long Jimmy would be in the arms of the Shepherd, and, of course, because it had been a trying day all through, Peter’s lips were none too steady as he folded up the letter.

The fire was dead in the stove; Peter put out the salon lamp and closed the shutters.  In the warm darkness he put out his hand to feel his way through the room.  It touched a little sweater coat of Harmony’s, hanging over the back of a chair.  Peter picked it up in a very passion of tenderness and held it to him.

“Little girl!” he choked.  “My little girl!  God help me!”

He was rather ashamed, considerably startled.  It alarmed him to find that the mere unexpected touch of a familiar garment could rouse such a storm in him.  It made him pause.  He put down the coat and pulled himself up sharply.  McLean was right; he was only human stuff, very poor human stuff.  He put the little coat down hastily, only to lift it again gently to his lips.