we had been out too late boating or skating.
And unless authority or substantial decorum was really
threatened he was very lenient—or rather
had an amused sympathy with the irregularities that
are mere matters of mischief or high spirits.
In lecture it was,
mutatis mutandis, the same
man. Seeing, from his
Remains, the “high
view of his own capacities of which he could not divest
himself,” and his determination not to exhibit
or be puffed up by it, and looking back on his tutorial
manner (I was in his lectures both in classics and
mathematics), it was strange how he disguised, not
only his
sense of superiority, but the appearance
of it, so that his pupils felt him more as a fellow-student
than as the refined scholar or mathematician which
he was. This was partly owing to his carelessness
of those formulae, the familiarity with which gives
even second-rate lecturers a position of superiority
which is less visible in those who, like their pupils,
are themselves always struggling with principles—and
partly to an effort, perhaps sometimes overdone, not
to put himself above the level of others. In
a lecture on the
Supplices of Aeschylus, I have
heard him say
tout bonnement, “I can’t
construe that—what do you make of it, A.B.?”
turning to the supposed best scholar in the lecture;
or, when an objection was started to his mode of getting
through a difficulty, “Ah! I had not thought
of that—perhaps your way is the best.”
And this mode of dealing with himself and the undergraduates
whom he liked, made them like him, but also made them
really undervalue his talent, which, as we now see,
was what he meant they should do. At the same
time, though watchful over his own vanity, he was
keen and prompt in snubs—playful and challenging
retort—to those he liked, but in the nature
of scornful exposure, when he had to do with coarseness
or coxcombry, or shallow display of sentiment.
It was a paradoxical consequence of his suppression
of egotism that he was more solicitous to show that
you were wrong than that he was right.
He also wanted, like Socrates or Bishop Butler, to
make others, if possible, think for themselves.
However, it is not to be inferred that his conversation
was made of controversy. To a certain extent
it turned that way, because he was fond of paradox.
(His brother William used to say that he, William,
never felt he had really mastered a principle till
he had thrown it into a paradox.) And paradox, of
course, invites contradiction, and so controversy.
On subjects upon which he considered himself more or
less an apostle, he liked to stir people’s minds
by what startled them, waking them up, or giving them
“nuts to crack.” An almost solemn
gravity with amusement twinkling behind it—not
invisible—and ready to burst forth into
a bright low laugh when gravity had been played out,
was a very frequent posture with him.