other hand, the bulk of the party, and its other Oxford
leaders, Dr. Pusey, Mr. Keble, Mr. Isaac Williams,
Mr. Marriott, were quite unaffected by the disquieting
apprehensions which were beginning to beset Mr. Newman.
With a humbling consciousness of the practical shortcomings
of the English Church, with a ready disposition to
be honest and just towards Rome, and even to minimise
our differences with it, they had not admitted for
a moment any doubt of the reality of the English Church.
The class of arguments which specially laid hold of
Mr. Newman’s mind did not tell upon them—the
peculiar aspect of early precedents, about which, moreover,
a good deal of criticism was possible; or the large
and sweeping conception of a vast, ever-growing, imperial
Church, great enough to make flaws and imperfections
of no account, which appealed so strongly to his statesmanlike
imagination. Their content with the Church in
which they had been brought up, in which they had
been taught religion, and in which they had taken
service, their deep and affectionate loyalty and piety
to it, in spite of all its faults, remained unimpaired;
and unimpaired, also, was their sense of vast masses
of practical evil in the Roman Church, evils from
which they shrank both as Englishmen and as Christians,
and which seemed as incurable as they were undeniable.
Beyond the hope which they vaguely cherished that some
day or other, by some great act of Divine mercy, these
evils might disappear, and the whole Church become
once more united, there was nothing to draw them towards
Rome; submission was out of the question, and they
could only see in its attitude in England the hostility
of a jealous and unscrupulous disturber of their Master’s
work. The movement still went on, with its original
purpose, and on its original lines, in spite of the
presence in it, and even the co-operation, of men who
might one day have other views, and serious and fatal
differences with their old friends.
The change of religion when it comes on a man gradually,—when
it is not welcomed from the first, but, on the contrary,
long resisted, must always be a mysterious and perplexing
process, hard to realise and follow by the person
most deeply interested, veiled and clouded to lookers-on,
because naturally belonging to the deepest depths of
the human conscience, and inevitably, and without
much fault on either side, liable to be misinterpreted
and misunderstood. And this process is all the
more tangled when it goes on, not in an individual
mind, travelling in its own way on its own path, little
affected by others, and little affecting them, but
in a representative person, with the responsibilities
of a great cause upon him, bound by closest ties of
every kind to friends, colleagues, and disciples, thinking,
feeling, leading, pointing out the way for hundreds
who love and depend on him. Views and feelings
vary from day to day, according to the events and
conditions of the day. How shall he speak, and