by women’s attitudes. And if Hill never
by any chance mentioned the topic of love to her,
she only credited him with the finer modesty for that
omission. So the time came on for the second examination,
and Hill’s increasing pallor confirmed the general
rumour that he was working hard. In the aerated
bread shop near South Kensington Station you would
see him, breaking his bun and sipping his milk, with
his eyes intent upon a paper of closely written notes.
In his bedroom there were propositions about buds
and stems round his looking-glass, a diagram to catch
his eye, if soap should chance to spare it, above
his washing basin. He missed several meetings
of the debating society, but he found the chance encounters
with Miss Haysman in the spacious ways of the adjacent
art museum, or in the little museum at the top of
the College, or in the College corridors, more frequent
and very restful. In particular, they used to
meet in a little gallery full of wrought-iron chests
and gates, near the art library, and there Hill used
to talk, under the gentle stimulus of her flattering
attention, of Browning and his personal ambitions.
A characteristic she found remarkable in him was his
freedom from avarice. He contemplated quite calmly
the prospect of living all his life on an income below
a hundred pounds a year. But he was determined
to be famous, to make, recognisably in his own proper
person, the world a better place to live in.
He took Bradlaugh and John Burns for his leaders and
models, poor, even impecunious, great men. But
Miss Haysman thought that such lives were deficient
on the aesthetic side, by which, though she did not
know it, she meant good wall-paper and upholstery,
pretty books, tasteful clothes, concerts, and meals
nicely cooked and respectfully served.
At last came the day of the second examination, and
the professor of botany, a fussy, conscientious man,
rearranged all the tables in a long narrow laboratory
to prevent copying, and put his demonstrator on a chair
on a table (where he felt, he said, like a Hindoo god),
to see all the cheating, and stuck a notice outside
the door, “Door closed,” for no earthly
reason that any human being could discover. And
all the morning from ten till one the quill of Wedderburn
shrieked defiance at Hill’s, and the quills
of the others chased their leaders in a tireless pack,
and so also it was in the afternoon. Wedderburn
was a little quieter than usual, and Hill’s
face was hot all day, and his overcoat bulged with
textbooks and notebooks against the last moment’s
revision. And the next day, in the morning and
in the afternoon, was the practical examination, when
sections had to be cut and slides identified.
In the morning Hill was depressed because he knew
he had cut a thick section, and in the afternoon came
the mysterious slip.