Hitherto she had divided the beyond-world into two sharp halves—­spirits good or spirits evil.  But thoughts came to her now, on soft and very tentative feet, like the footsteps of the gods which are on wool, that besides these definite classes, there might be other Powers as well, belonging definitely to neither one nor other.  Her thought stopped dead at that.  But the big idea found lodgment in her little mind, and, owing to the largeness of her heart, remained there unejected.  It even brought a certain solace with it.

The failure—­or unwillingness, as she preferred to state it—­of her God to interfere and help, that also she came in a measure to understand.  For here, she found it more and more possible to imagine, was perhaps no positive evil at work, but only something that usually stands away from humankind, something alien and not commonly recognized.  There was a gulf fixed between the two, and Mr. Sanderson had bridged it, by his talk, his explanations, his attitude of mind.  Through these her husband had found the way into it.  His temperament and natural passion for the woods had prepared the soul in him, and the moment he saw the way to go he took it—­the line of least resistance.  Life was, of course, open to all, and her husband had the right to choose it where he would.  He had chosen it—­away from her, away from other men, but not necessarily away from God.  This was an enormous concession that she skirted, never really faced; it was too revolutionary to face.  But its possibility peeped into her bewildered mind.  It might delay his progress, or it might advance it.  Who could know?  And why should God, who ordered all things with such magnificent detail, from the pathway of a sun to the falling of a sparrow, object to his free choice, or interfere to hinder him and stop?

She came to realize resignation, that is, in another aspect.  It gave her comfort, if not peace.  She fought against all belittling of her God.  It was, perhaps, enough that He—­knew.

“You are not alone, dear in the trees out there?” she ventured one night, as he crept on tiptoe into the room not far from midnight.  “God is with you?”

“Magnificently,” was the immediate answer, given with enthusiasm, “for He is everywhere.  And I only wish that you—­”

But she stuffed the clothes against her ears.  That invitation on his lips was more than she could bear to hear.  It seemed like asking her to hurry to her own execution.  She buried her face among the sheets and blankets, shaking all over like a leaf.

IX

And so the thought that she was the one to go remained and grew.  It was, perhaps, first sign of that weakening of the mind which indicated the singular manner of her going.  For it was her mental opposition, the trees felt, that stood in their way.  Once that was overcome, obliterated, her physical presence did not matter.  She would be harmless.