that marriage is not what she expected it to be, and
that it gives me many unfair advantages over her;
and she knows also that ours is a happier marriage
than most. Nevertheless she will encourage other
girls to marry; she will maintain that the chain which
galls her own wrists so often is a string of honeysuckles;
and if a woman identifies herself with any public movement
for the lightening of that chain, she wont allow that
that woman is fit to be admitted into decent society.
There is not one of these shams to which she clings
that I would not like to take by the throat and shake
the life out of; and she knows it. Even in that
she has not the consistency to believe me wrong, because
it is undutiful and out of keeping with the honeysuckles
to lack faith in her husband. In order to blind
herself to her inconsistencies, she has to live in
a rose-colored fog; and what with me constantly, in
spite of myself, blowing this fog away on the one
side, and the naked facts of her everyday experience
as constantly letting in the daylight on the other,
she must spend half the time wondering whether she
is mad or sane. Between her desire to do right
and her discoveries that it generally leads her to
do wrong, she passes her life in a wistful melancholy
which I cant dispel. I can only pity her.
I suppose I could pet her; but I hate treating a woman
like a child: it means giving up all hope of
her becoming rational. She may turn for relief
any day either to love or religion; and for her own
sake I hope she will choose the first. Of the
two evils, it is the least permanent.”
And Conolly, having disburdened himself, resumed his
work without any pretence of waiting for the clergyman’s
comments.
“Well,” said the Rev. George, cautiously,
“I do not think I have quite followed your opinions,
which seem to me to be exactly upside down, as if
they were projected upon the retina of your mind’s
eye—to use Shakspear’s happy phrase—just
as they would be upon your—your real eye,
you know. But I can assure you that your view
of Marian is an entirely mistaken one. You seem
to think that she does not give in her entire adherence
to the doctrines of the Establishment. This is
a matter which I venture to say you do not understand.”
“Admitted,” interposed Conolly, hastily.
“Here is my workman’s tea. Are you
fond of scones?”
“I hardly know. Anything—the
simplest fare, will satisfy me.”
“So it does me, when I can get nothing better.
Help yourself, pray.”
Conolly did not sit down to the meal, but worked whilst
the clergyman ate. Presently the Rev. George,
warmed by the fire and cheered by the repast, returned
to the subject of his host’s domestic affairs.
“Come,” he said, “I am sure that
a few judicious words would lead to an explanation
between you and Marian.”
“I also think that a few words might do so.
But they would not be judicious words.”
“Why not? Can it be injudicious to restore
harmony in a household?”