The Life of Col. James Gardiner eBook

Philip Doddridge
This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 170 pages of information about The Life of Col. James Gardiner.

The Life of Col. James Gardiner eBook

Philip Doddridge
This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 170 pages of information about The Life of Col. James Gardiner.

There is indeed a possibility, that while he was sitting in this solitude, and reading in this careless and profane manner, he might suddenly fall asleep, and only dream of what he apprehended he saw.  But nothing can be more certain than that, when he gave me this relation, he judged himself to have been as broad awake during the whole time as he ever was in any part of his life; and he mentioned it to me several times afterwards as what undoubtedly passed, not only in his imagination, but before his eyes.[*]

[Note:  Mr. Spears, in the letter mentioned above, where he introduces the colonel telling his own story, has these words “All of a sudden there was presented in a very lively manner to my view, or to my mind, a representation of my glorious Redeemer,” &c.  And this gentleman adds, in a parenthesis, “It was so lively and striking, that he could not tell whether it was to his bodily eyes, or to those of his mind.”  This makes me think that what I had said to him on the phenomena of visions, apparitions, &c., (as being, when most real, supernatural impressions on the imagination, rather than attended with any external object,) had some influence upon him.  Yet still it is evident he looked upon this as a vision, whether it was before the eyes or in the mind, and not as a dream.]

He thought he saw an unusual blaze of light fall on the book while he was reading, which he at first imagined might happen by some accident in the candle.  But, lifting up his eyes, he apprehended, to his extreme amazement, that there was before him, as it were suspended in the air, a visible representation of the Lord Jesus Christ upon the cross, surrounded on all sides with a glory; and was impressed as if a voice, or something equivalent to a voice, had come to him to this effect, (for he was not confident as to the very words).  “Oh, sinner! did I suffer this for thee, and are these the returns?” But whether this were an audible voice, or only a strong impression on his mind equally striking, he did not seem very confident, though, to the best of my remembrance, he rather judged it to be the former.  Struck with so amazing a phenomenon as this, there remained hardly any life in him, so that he sunk down in the arm chair in which he sat, and continued, he knew not exactly how long, insensible, (which was one circumstance that made me several times take the liberty to suggest that he might possibly be all this while asleep,) but however that were, he quickly after opened his eyes, and saw nothing more than usual.

It may easily be supposed he was in no condition to make any observations upon the time in which he had remained in an insensible state, nor did he, throughout all the remainder of the night, once recollect that criminal and detestable assignation which had before engrossed all his thoughts.  He rose in a tumult of passions not to be conceived, and walked to and fro in his chamber till he was ready to drop down in

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