we are delivered when we know nothing of it; how,
when we are in a quandary, (as we call it) a doubt
or hesitation, whether to go this way, or that way,
a secret hint shall direct us this way, when we intended
to go that way: nay, when sense, our own inclination,
and perhaps business, has called to go the other way,
yet a strange impression upon the mind, from we know
not what springs, and by we know not what power, shall
over-rule us to go this way; and it shall afterwards
appear, that had we gone that way which we should
have gone, and even to our imagination ought to have
gone, we should have been ruined and lost. Upon
these, and many like reflections, I afterwards made
it a certain rule with me, that whenever I found those
secret hints or pressings of mind, to doing or not
doing any thing that presented, or going this way
or that way, I never failed to obey the secret dictate;
though I knew no other reason for it than that such
a pressure, or such a hint, hung upon my mind.
I could give many examples of the success of this
conduct in the course of my life, but more especially
in the latter part of my inhabiting this unhappy island;
besides many occasions which it is very likely I might
have taken notice of, if I had seen with the same
eyes then that I see with now. But it is never
too late to be wise; and I cannot but advise all considering
men, whose lives are attended with such extraordinary
incidents as mine, or even though not so extraordinary,
not to slight such secret intimations of Providence,
let them come from what invisible intelligence they
will. That I shall not discuss, and perhaps cannot
account for; but certainly they are a proof of the
converse of spirits, and a secret communication between
those embodied and those unembodied, and such a proof
as can never be withstood; of which I shall have occasion
to give some very remarkable instances in the remainder
of my solitary residence in this dismal place.
I believe the reader of this will not think it strange
if I confess that these anxieties, these constant
dangers I lived in, and the concern that was now upon
me, put an end to all invention, and to all the contrivances
that I had laid for my future accommodations and conveniences.
I had the care of my safety more now upon my hands
than that of my food. I cared not to drive a
nail, or chop a stick of wood now, for fear the noise
I might make should be heard: much less would
I fire a gun, for the same reason: and, above
all, I was intolerably uneasy at making any fire,
lest the smoke, which is visible at a great distance
in the day, should betray me. For this reason
I removed that part of my business which required
fire, such as burning of pots and pipes, &c. into
my new apartment in the woods; where, after I had been
some time, I found, to my unspeakable consolation,
a mere natural cave in the earth, which went in a
vast way, and where, I dare say, no savage, had he
been at the mouth of it, would be so hardy as to venture
in; nor, indeed, would any man else, but one who, like
me, wanted nothing so much as a safe retreat.