to Peters door. It was locked: but immediately
near the pavement was a window, the lower sash up,
into which, with little trouble, I lifted myself and
passed. My foot, as I lowered it, stood on a
body: and this made me angry and restless.
I hissed a curse, and passed on, scraping the carpet
with my soles, that I might hurt no one: for
I did not wish to hurt any one. Even in the almost
darkness of the room I recognised Peters’ furniture,
as I expected: for the house was his on a long
lease, and I knew that his mother had had the intention
to occupy it after his death. But as I passed
into the passage, all was mere blank darkness, and
I, depending upon the lamp, had left the matches in
the other house. I groped my way to the stairs,
and had my foot on the first step, when I was stopped
by a vicious shaking of the front-door, which someone
seemed to be at with hustlings and the most urgent
poundings: I stood with peering stern brows two
or three minutes, for I knew that if I once yielded
to the flinching at my heart, no mercy would be shown
me in this house of tragedy, and thrilling shrieks
would of themselves arise and ring through its haunted
chambers. The rattling continued an inordinate
time, and so instant and imperative, that it seemed
as if it could not fail to force the door. But,
though horrified, I whispered to my heart that it could
only be the storm which was struggling at it like
the grasp of a man, and after a time went on, feeling
my way by the broad rail, in my brain somehow the
thought of a dream which I had had in the
Boreal
of the woman Clodagh, how she let drop a fluid like
pomegranate-seeds into water, and tendered it to Peter
Peters: and it was a mortal purging draught; but
I would not stop, but step by step went up, though
I suffered very much, my brows peering at the utter
darkness, and my heart shocked at its own rashness.
I got to the first landing, and as I turned to ascend
the second part of the stair, my left hand touched
something icily cold: I made some quick instinctive
movement of terror, and, doing so, my foot struck against
something, and I stumbled, half falling over what seemed
a small table there. Immediately a horrible row
followed, for something fell to the ground: and
at that instant, ah, I heard something—a
voice—a human voice, which uttered words
close to my ear—the voice of Clodagh, for
I knew it: yet not the voice of Clodagh in the
flesh, but her voice clogged with clay and worms,
and full of effort, and thick-tongued: and in
that ghastly speech of the grave I distinctly heard
the words:
‘Things being as they are in the matter of
the death of Peter ...’
And there it stopped dead, leaving me so sick, my
God, so sick, that I could hardly snatch my robes
about me to fly, fly, fly, soft-footed, murmuring
in pain, down the steps, down like a sneaking thief,
but quick, snatching myself away, then wrestling with
the cruel catch of the door which she would not let
me open, feeling her all the time behind me, watching
me. And when I did get out, I was away up the
length of the street, trailing my long jubbah,
glancing backward, panting, for I thought that she
might dare to follow, with her daring evil will.
And all that night I lay on a common bench in the
wind-tossed and dismal Park.