it away to town. Time, however, discovered that
he translated from the French, a Rambler, which had
been taken from the English, without acknowledgment.
Upon this discovery, Mr. Murphy thought it right to
make his excuses to Dr. Johnson. He went next
day, and found him covered with soot, like a chimney-sweeper,
in a little room, as if he had been acting Lungs,
in the Alchemist, “making ether.”
This being told by Mr. Murphy, in company, “Come,
come,” said Dr. Johnson, “the story is
black enough; but it was a happy day that brought
you first to my house.” After this first
visit, the author of this narrative, by degrees, grew
intimate with Dr. Johnson. The first striking
sentence, that he heard from him, was in a few days
after the publication of lord Bolingbroke’s posthumous
works. Mr. Garrick asked him, “If he had
seen them.” “Yes, I have seen them.”
“What do you think of them?” “Think
of them!” He made a long pause, and then replied:
“Think of them! A scoundrel, and a coward!
A scoundrel, who spent his life in charging a gun
against christianity; and a coward, who was afraid
of hearing the report of his own gun; but left half
a crown to a hungry Scotchman to draw the trigger,
after his death.” His mind, at this time
strained, and over-laboured by constant exertion,
called for an interval of repose and indolence.
But indolence was the time of danger: it was
then that his spirits, not employed abroad, turned
with inward hostility against himself. His reflections
on his own life and conduct were always severe; and,
wishing to be immaculate, he destroyed his own peace
by unnecessary scruples. He tells us, that when
he surveyed his past life, he discovered nothing but
a barren waste of time, with some disorders of body,
and disturbances of mind, very near to madness.
His life, he says, from his earliest years, was wasted
in a morning bed; and his reigning sin was a general
sluggishness, to which he was always inclined, and,
in part of his life, almost compelled, by morbid melancholy,
and weariness of mind. This was his constitutional
malady, derived, perhaps, from his father, who was,
at times, overcast with a gloom that bordered on insanity.
When to this it is added, that Johnson, about the
age of twenty, drew up a description of his infirmities,
for Dr. Swinfen, at that time an eminent physician,
in Staffordshire; and received an answer to his letter,
importing, that the symptoms indicated a future privation
of reason; who can wonder, that he was troubled with
melancholy, and dejection of spirit? An apprehension
of the worst calamity that can befall human nature
hung over him all the rest of his life, like the sword
of the tyrant suspended over his guest. In his
sixtieth year he had a mind to write the history of
his melancholy; but he desisted, not knowing whether
it would not too much disturb him. In a Latin
poem, however, to which he has prefixed, as a title,
[Greek: GNOTHI SEAUTON], he has left a picture
of himself, drawn with as much truth, and as firm a
hand, as can be seen in the portraits of Hogarth,
or sir Joshua Reynolds. The learned reader will
find the original poem in this volume; and it is hoped,
that a translation, or rather imitation, of so curious
a piece, will not be improper in this place.


