Martin Eden eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 523 pages of information about Martin Eden.

Martin Eden eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 523 pages of information about Martin Eden.
vision in misty wafture of unseen beauty.  It was baffling.  He ached with desire to express and could but gibber prosaically as everybody gibbered.  He read his fragments aloud.  The metre marched along on perfect feet, and the rhyme pounded a longer and equally faultless rhythm, but the glow and high exaltation that he felt within were lacking.  He could not understand, and time and again, in despair, defeated and depressed, he returned to his article.  Prose was certainly an easier medium.

Following the “Pearl-diving,” he wrote an article on the sea as a career, another on turtle-catching, and a third on the northeast trades.  Then he tried, as an experiment, a short story, and before he broke his stride he had finished six short stories and despatched them to various magazines.  He wrote prolifically, intensely, from morning till night, and late at night, except when he broke off to go to the reading-room, draw books from the library, or to call on Ruth.  He was profoundly happy.  Life was pitched high.  He was in a fever that never broke.  The joy of creation that is supposed to belong to the gods was his.  All the life about him—­the odors of stale vegetables and soapsuds, the slatternly form of his sister, and the jeering face of Mr. Higginbotham—­was a dream.  The real world was in his mind, and the stories he wrote were so many pieces of reality out of his mind.

The days were too short.  There was so much he wanted to study.  He cut his sleep down to five hours and found that he could get along upon it.  He tried four hours and a half, and regretfully came back to five.  He could joyfully have spent all his waking hours upon any one of his pursuits.  It was with regret that he ceased from writing to study, that he ceased from study to go to the library, that he tore himself away from that chart-room of knowledge or from the magazines in the reading-room that were filled with the secrets of writers who succeeded in selling their wares.  It was like severing heart strings, when he was with Ruth, to stand up and go; and he scorched through the dark streets so as to get home to his books at the least possible expense of time.  And hardest of all was it to shut up the algebra or physics, put note-book and pencil aside, and close his tired eyes in sleep.  He hated the thought of ceasing to live, even for so short a time, and his sole consolation was that the alarm clock was set five hours ahead.  He would lose only five hours anyway, and then the jangling bell would jerk him out of unconsciousness and he would have before him another glorious day of nineteen hours.

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