Martin Eden eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 523 pages of information about Martin Eden.

Martin Eden eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 523 pages of information about Martin Eden.

He turned to the huge bundle of clippings which had come in from his press bureau, and read about himself and his vogue, which had become a furore.  All his creative output had been flung to the public in one magnificent sweep.  That seemed to account for it.  He had taken the public off its feet, the way Kipling had, that time when he lay near to death and all the mob, animated by a mob-mind thought, began suddenly to read him.  Martin remembered how that same world-mob, having read him and acclaimed him and not understood him in the least, had, abruptly, a few months later, flung itself upon him and torn him to pieces.  Martin grinned at the thought.  Who was he that he should not be similarly treated in a few more months?  Well, he would fool the mob.  He would be away, in the South Seas, building his grass house, trading for pearls and copra, jumping reefs in frail outriggers, catching sharks and bonitas, hunting wild goats among the cliffs of the valley that lay next to the valley of Taiohae.

In the moment of that thought the desperateness of his situation dawned upon him.  He saw, cleared eyed, that he was in the Valley of the Shadow.  All the life that was in him was fading, fainting, making toward death.

He realized how much he slept, and how much he desired to sleep.  Of old, he had hated sleep.  It had robbed him of precious moments of living.  Four hours of sleep in the twenty-four had meant being robbed of four hours of life.  How he had grudged sleep!  Now it was life he grudged.  Life was not good; its taste in his mouth was without tang, and bitter.  This was his peril.  Life that did not yearn toward life was in fair way toward ceasing.  Some remote instinct for preservation stirred in him, and he knew he must get away.  He glanced about the room, and the thought of packing was burdensome.  Perhaps it would be better to leave that to the last.  In the meantime he might be getting an outfit.

He put on his hat and went out, stopping in at a gun-store, where he spent the remainder of the morning buying automatic rifles, ammunition, and fishing tackle.  Fashions changed in trading, and he knew he would have to wait till he reached Tahiti before ordering his trade-goods.  They could come up from Australia, anyway.  This solution was a source of pleasure.  He had avoided doing something, and the doing of anything just now was unpleasant.  He went back to the hotel gladly, with a feeling of satisfaction in that the comfortable Morris chair was waiting for him; and he groaned inwardly, on entering his room, at sight of Joe in the Morris chair.

Joe was delighted with the laundry.  Everything was settled, and he would enter into possession next day.  Martin lay on the bed, with closed eyes, while the other talked on.  Martin’s thoughts were far away—­so far away that he was rarely aware that he was thinking.  It was only by an effort that he occasionally responded.  And yet this was Joe, whom he had always liked.  But Joe was too keen with life.  The boisterous impact of it on Martin’s jaded mind was a hurt.  It was an aching probe to his tired sensitiveness.  When Joe reminded him that sometime in the future they were going to put on the gloves together, he could almost have screamed.

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