His intuition told him it was the wrong thing to do, and he was glad that sheet and tiller kept his hands occupied and fended off temptation.  But he luffed the boat less delicately, spilling the wind shamelessly from the sail so as to prolong the tack to the north shore.  The shore would compel him to go about, and the contact would be broken.  He sailed with skill, stopping way on the boat without exciting the notice of the wranglers, and mentally forgiving his hardest voyages in that they had made this marvellous night possible, giving him mastery over sea and boat and wind so that he could sail with her beside him, her dear weight against him on his shoulder.

When the first light of the rising moon touched the sail, illuminating the boat with pearly radiance, Ruth moved away from him.  And, even as she moved, she felt him move away.  The impulse to avoid detection was mutual.  The episode was tacitly and secretly intimate.  She sat apart from him with burning cheeks, while the full force of it came home to her.  She had been guilty of something she would not have her brothers see, nor Olney see.  Why had she done it?  She had never done anything like it in her life, and yet she had been moonlight-sailing with young men before.  She had never desired to do anything like it.  She was overcome with shame and with the mystery of her own burgeoning womanhood.  She stole a glance at Martin, who was busy putting the boat about on the other tack, and she could have hated him for having made her do an immodest and shameful thing.  And he, of all men!  Perhaps her mother was right, and she was seeing too much of him.  It would never happen again, she resolved, and she would see less of him in the future.  She entertained a wild idea of explaining to him the first time they were alone together, of lying to him, of mentioning casually the attack of faintness that had overpowered her just before the moon came up.  Then she remembered how they had drawn mutually away before the revealing moon, and she knew he would know it for a lie.

In the days that swiftly followed she was no longer herself but a strange, puzzling creature, wilful over judgment and scornful of self-analysis, refusing to peer into the future or to think about herself and whither she was drifting.  She was in a fever of tingling mystery, alternately frightened and charmed, and in constant bewilderment.  She had one idea firmly fixed, however, which insured her security.  She would not let Martin speak his love.  As long as she did this, all would be well.  In a few days he would be off to sea.  And even if he did speak, all would be well.  It could not be otherwise, for she did not love him.  Of course, it would be a painful half hour for him, and an embarrassing half hour for her, because it would be her first proposal.  She thrilled deliciously at the thought.  She was really a woman, with a man ripe to ask for her in marriage.  It was a lure to all that was fundamental