Chapter 37-45 Summary

In Chapter 37, Ellie searches Sean's messenger bag while he is gone and finds dozens of papers and photos. One is a drawing intended for Jason -Sean's brother -but Sean has scratched out "Jason" and replaced it with his own name. There is a photo of Nina and Jason. The other pages are undelivered letters to Nina from Sean, about Sean wanting to be there for Nina. One is a letter talking about the police asking Sean where Jason would have gotten heroin; another details an unnamed deed Sean committed out of love for Nina. Ellie realizes Jason died the day Nina disappeared. Sean comes back, and Ellie rushes to put everything back, and pretends to get out of the shower. Sean tells Ellie he will always be there for her.

But then Sean realizes Ellie has been in his bag. He...