Summary

Heidi feels the loss of the grandmother she never knew and her mother simultaneously. The day she finds out she has a grandmother is the day she finds out her grandmother is dead is the day her mother dies. Bernadette had asked Ruby to be there when Heidi found out, Heidi is told that Sophia went peacefully in her sleep.

Heidi is wracked with guilt for not going home when Bernadette told her to. Bernadette assures her that it would have been too late, even had she left when then. Ruby runs a bath for Heidi and tucks her in bed even though it is afternoon.

Heidi finds the notebook she had been making her lists about what she knew and what she didn’t know. Suddenly, this seemed meaningless. Heidi tears up all the pages. She uses her mother’s word...