Chapters Three & Four (Jacob) Summary

Jacob is beginning to hate Amsterdam. He feels very confused, disoriented, and disappointed. He had been most looking forward to visiting Anne Frank's house, but he left after an undisclosed event left him feeling emotional and embarrassed. Before he left on this journey, his father called Jacob a "congenital wimp" and now, Jacob is starting to believe it. The rain begins to pour in Amsterdam and Jacob begins to feel suicidal. The only person who was ever able to pull him out of his suicidal depressions was his grandmother, but she's not here now. She calls these moods Jacob's "mouse moods" because he takes all his fear and turns it internal, like a shivering, terrified mouse they once found in the floorboards of her house. Jacob tried to free that mouse, but he accidentally killed it. In...