Winston awoke. He had been dreaming of his mother again. He told Julia about the dream and explained many details of the part of his childhood that he remembered. The moment he awoke was the first time he knew that he didn't murder his mother. He had believed that he indirectly was responsible for her death until just then. He remembered war and chaos, rubble in the streets, and always being hungry. When his father had disappeared, his mother didn't show any outward emotion but her demeanor changed. He remembered that she became spiritless. She moved through the motions of life and duties of child rearing quietly and mechanically. He recalled how selfish he was in his youth, how he actually stole food from his baby sister because his hunger was.....
