Summary

In Chapter 9, Jahren describes the onset of a manic episode. She talks about ignoring food and water but having the overwhelming need to run. She mentions “the person holding” her during the episode and her efforts to explain, but he did not understand. She grew angry and pushed him away, planning to explain it later. The final phase of the episode was, as always, a sense of euphoria. She voiced her thoughts into a tape recorder. Then the episode grew out of hand and she screamed. The person came back and helped her clean up the blood and snot, and gave her a sleeping pill, then another. Finally, time passed and she pushed out of bed to “assess the damage” and get back to her life.

In the future, she would go to the doctor, planning only to...