Bonham has to find a way to stop all the fading, rushing, smothering, sinking, and rising that make him want to holler, laugh, and claw himself with hands rotting in a hospital dump. He needs to get a hold of himself. He knows time has passed because his stumps are healed and the bandages are gone. He needs to figure out what he will do next. He is like a full-grown man being stuffed back into his mother's body: helpless, fed through his stomach, but unable to look forward to living. He must remember and accept that he will live in this womb forever, unable to communicate or experience the sights and sounds and smells of his old life. He will never walk, run, jump, stretch, or get tired. If the.....
