Summary

Though Dani describes her experience finding and meeting Ben as "miraculous," she finds herself in a state of despair after their meeting (197). She keeps researching the history and ethics of donor insemination, looking for "a single key that would unlock a door leading to everything I still didn't know" (197). She looks at the profiles of current sperm donors — many of whom are anonymous and are not willing to be contacted by their child — and wonders if they really understand what they are doing. Dani then writes about how, after Jacob was born and she had fertility troubles of her own, she and Michael considered using a donor egg to have a second child. She reflects on this experience of hers, knowing that "if we stopped to ponder all of the possible implications of our actions, we would grind to a halt...