Spring (pg. 175-211) Summary

At home later, Caitlin reads another journal entry while in her partially built tree house. In the entry, Ingrid describes her first sexual encounter, which she purposefully planned with two guys she and Caitlin barely knew. She admits to feeling dead, and wanting them to hurt her, so she could feel something. She addresses the entry to Jayson, apologizing that she has screwed it up if they ever get together, but also noting she still hopes they will. Caitlin finds herself wondering how she could have looked at her friend after this, and not seen a difference. Caitlin knows she should go inside, but finds herself reading more entries. These are short messages, addressed to her family and friends, words of apology or desire, or hate. The final entry is addressed to Caitlin and begins with "This is a...