Love is the engine that drives all of the girl's behavior in "How I Contemplated." She may be misguided, self-destructive, and immature, but the narrator's actions all derive from her desire to be loved. Despite their generosity, the girl's parents seem unable to give her the attention and unguarded affection that she craves. She describes her mother as icy, distant, and artfully constructed and her father as powerful, distracted, and unavailable. As we learn through several references in the story, the narrator's older brother, away at college, engages in the same desperate attention-getting behaviors.
In the narrator's eyes, the mother possesses an other-wordly charm and poise that she feels she can neither live up to nor puncture. Her mother is "a lady . . . self-conscious and unreal." She has "hair like blown-up gold.....
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