What is the main conflict in Desolation Angels by Jack Kerouac?

One major conflict revolves around Kerouac's past grief, anger and regret that inundates him through a disturbing dream. The dream details his feelings of uselessness and confusion, starting with his father's dying days when nothing could be done to save him to his mother's illness. The retelling of Kerouac's Army days relate that the entire time he was enlisted, the sense of conflict and stupidity he feels is overwhelming to the point of paralysis. In writing to his mother, the author hopes to let her know that he can be trusted, and although the current living situation may prove otherwise, Kerouac will always be there for her.