I Never Promised You a Rose Garden Chapter 22
Deborah notices that the ward attendants seem nicer to her, and Furii points out that her mask of anger and indifference has fallen away since the great volcano explosion. Now Deborah knows when the anger is coming on, and she asks for a pack ahead of time. She feels better although she is packed at least once a day.
One night in the bathroom, all the voices of earth and Yr are silent as she looks out the window. She begins to see color and realizes for the first time that she is going to live.
After this epiphany, she and Furii work to dismantle the fantasies of Deborah's make-believe world. They dissect the fantasy that Deborah was a Japanese soldier and reduce it to Deborah's feeling of foreignness and violence. It also has a connection to anger and martyrdom, both of which are manifestations of her loneliness at camp and at school. These aspects of the fantasy are also an apt description of Pop, her domineering grandfather.