Dream Tales and Prose Poems eBook

At last, it was off ... and I was running, running away at full speed, with something flying behind me, upon my heels, overtaking me.

XVI

All I had felt and gone through was probably written on my face when I got home.  My mother abruptly drew herself up directly I went into her room, and looked with such urgent inquiry at me, that, after an unsuccessful attempt to explain, I ended by holding out the ring to her in silence.  She turned fearfully white, her eyes opened extraordinarily and looked dead, like those eyes; she uttered a faint cry, snatched the ring, reeled, fell on my breast, and fairly swooned away, her head falling back, and her blank wide-open eyes staring at me.  I threw both my arms about her, and standing where I was, without moving, told her slowly, in a subdued voice, everything, without the slightest concealment:  my dream, and the meeting, and everything, everything....  She heard me to the end without uttering a single word, only her bosom heaved more and more violently, and her eyes suddenly flashed and sank.  Then she put the ring on her third finger, and, moving away a little, began getting her cape and hat.  I asked her where she was going.  She lifted eyes full of surprise upon me, and tried to answer, but her voice failed her.  She shuddered several times, rubbed her hands, as though she were trying to warm them, and at last said, ’Let us go there at once.’

‘Where, mother?’

’Where he is lying ...  I want to see ...  I want to know ...  I will know....’

I endeavoured to persuade her not to go; but she almost fell into a nervous attack.  I saw it was impossible to oppose her wish, and we set off.

XVII

And now I was again walking along the sand; but this time not alone.  I had my mother on my arm.  The sea had ebbed away, had retreated farther still; it was calmer, but its roar, though fainter, was still menacing and malignant.  There, at last, rose the solitary rock before us; there was the seaweed too.  I looked intently, I tried to distinguish that curved object lying on the ground—­but I saw nothing.  We went closer; instinctively I slackened my pace.  But where was the black still object?  Only the tangles of seaweed rose black against the sand, which had dried up by now.  We went right up to the rock....  There was no corpse to be seen; and only where it had been lying there was still a hollow place, and one could see where the arms and where the legs had lain....  The seaweed around looked as it were crushed, and prints were visible of one man’s feet; they crossed the dune, then were lost, as they reached the heaped-up shingle.

My mother and I looked at each other, and were frightened at what we saw in each other’s faces....

Surely he had not got up of himself and gone away?

‘You are sure you saw him dead?’ she asked in a whisper.