Triumph of the Egg, and Other Stories eBook

The voice of the young man who walked with me in the park by the lake in the city became shrill.  I sensed the weariness in him.  Then he laughed and said quietly and softly, “It isn’t so simple.  By being sure of yourself you are in danger of losing all of the romance of life.  You miss the whole point.  Nothing in life can be settled so definitely.  The woman—­you see—­was like a young tree choked by a climbing vine.  The thing that wrapped her about had shut out the light.  She was a grotesque as many trees in the forest are grotesques.  Her problem was such a difficult one that thinking of it has changed the whole current of my life.  At first I was like you.  I was quite sure.  I thought I would be her lover and settle the matter.”

LeRoy turned and walked a little away.  Then he came back and took hold of my arm.  A passionate earnestness took possession of him.  His voice trembled.  “She needed a lover, yes, the men in the house were quite right about that,” he said.  “She needed a lover and at the same time a lover was not what she needed.  The need of a lover was, after all, a quite secondary thing.  She needed to be loved, to be long and quietly and patiently loved.  To be sure she is a grotesque, but then all the people in the world are grotesques.  We all need to be loved.  What would cure her would cure the rest of us also.  The disease she had is, you see, universal.  We all want to be loved and the world has no plan for creating our lovers.”

LeRoy’s voice dropped and he walked beside me in silence.  We turned away from the lake and walked under trees.  I looked closely at him.  The cords of his neck were drawn taut.  “I have seen under the shell of life and I am afraid,” he mused.  “I am myself like the woman.  I am covered with creeping crawling vine-like things.  I cannot be a lover.  I am not subtle or patient enough.  I am paying old debts.  Old thoughts and beliefs—­seeds planted by dead men—­spring up in my soul and choke me.”

For a long time we walked and LeRoy talked, voicing the thoughts that came into his mind.  I listened in silence.  His mind struck upon the refrain voiced by the man in the mountains.  “I would like to be a dead dry thing,” he muttered looking at the leaves scattered over the grass.  “I would like to be a leaf blown away by the wind.”  He looked up and his eyes turned to where among the trees we could see the lake in the distance.  “I am weary and want to be made clean.  I am a man covered by creeping crawling things.  I would like to be dead and blown by the wind over limitless waters,” he said.  “I want more than anything else in the world to be clean.”

THE OTHER WOMAN

“I am in love with my wife,” he said—­a superfluous remark, as I had not questioned his attachment to the woman he had married.  We walked for ten minutes and then he said it again.  I turned to look at him.  He began to talk and told me the tale I am now about to set down.