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This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 468 pages of information about Annals of a Quiet Neighbourhood.

CHAPTER XXIX.

Calm and storm.

But of the two, Catherine had herself to go first.  Again and again was I sent for to say farewell to Mrs Tomkins, and again and again I returned home leaying her asleep, and for the time better.  But on a Saturday evening, as I sat by my vestry-fire, pondering on many things, and trying to make myself feel that they were as God saw them and not as they appeared to me, young Tom came to me with the news that his sister seemed much worse, and his father would be much obliged if I would go and see her.  I sent Tom on before, because I wished to follow alone.

It was a brilliant starry night; no moon, no clouds, no wind, nothing but stars.  They seemed to lean down towards the earth, as I have seen them since in more southern regions.  It was, indeed, a glorious night.  That is, I knew it was; I did not feel that it was.  For the death which I went to be near, came, with a strange sense of separation, between me and the nature around me.  I felt as if nature knew nothing, felt nothing, meant nothing, did not belong to humanity at all; for here was death, and there shone the stars.  I was wrong, as I knew afterwards.

I had had very little knowledge of the external shows of death.  Strange as it may appear, I had never yet seen a fellow-creature pass beyond the call of his fellow-mortals.  I had not even seen my father die.  And the thought was oppressive to me.  “To think,” I said to myself, as I walked over the bridge to the village-street—­“to think that the one moment the person is here, and the next—­who shall say where? for we know nothing of the region beyond the grave!  Not even our risen Lord thought fit to bring back from Hades any news for the human family standing straining their eyes after their brothers and sisters that have vanished in the dark.  Surely it is well, all well, although we know nothing, save that our Lord has been there, knows all about it, and does not choose to tell us.  Welcome ignorarance then! the ignorance in which he chooses to leave us.  I would rather not know, if He gave me my choice, but preferred that I should not know.”  And so the oppression passed from me, and I was free.

But little as I knew of the signs of the approach of death, I was certain, the moment I saw Catherine, that the veil that hid the “silent land” had begun to lift slowly between her and it.  And for a moment I almost envied her that she was so soon to see and know that after which our blindness and ignorance were wondering and hungering.  She could hardly speak.  She looked more patient than calm.  There was no light in the room but that of the fire, which flickered flashing and fading, now lighting up the troubled eye, and now letting a shadow of the coming repose fall gently over it.  Thomas sat by the fire with the child on his knee, both looking fixedly into the glow.  Gerard’s natural mood was so quiet and earnest, that the solemnity about him did not oppress him.  He looked as if he were present at some religious observance of which he felt more than he understood, and his childish peace was in no wise inharmonious with the awful silence of the coming change.  He was no more disquieted at the presence of death than the stars were.

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