The Unbearable Bassington eBook

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and these the exile scanned with a hungry intentness that the romance itself could never have commanded.  The name of a shop, of a street, the address of a restaurant, came to him as a bitter reminder of the world he had lost, a world that ate and drank and flirted, gambled and made merry, a world that debated and intrigued and wire-pulled, fought or compromised political battles—­and recked nothing of its outcasts wandering through forest paths and steamy swamps or lying in the grip of fever.  Comus read and re-read those few lines of advertisement, just as he treasured a much-crumpled programme of a first-night performance at the Straw Exchange Theatre; they seemed to make a little more real the past that was already so shadowy and so utterly remote.  For a moment he could almost capture the sensation of being once again in those haunts that he loved; then he looked round and pushed the book wearily from him.  The steaming heat, the forest, the rushing river hemmed him in on all sides.

The two boys who had been splitting wood ceased from their labours and straightened their backs; suddenly the smaller of the two gave the other a resounding whack with a split lath that he still held in his hand, and flew up the hillside with a scream of laughter and simulated terror, the bigger lad following in hot pursuit.  Up and down the steep bush-grown slope they raced and twisted and dodged, coming sometimes to close quarters in a hurricane of squeals and smacks, rolling over and over like fighting kittens, and breaking away again to start fresh provocation and fresh pursuit.  Now and again they would lie for a time panting in what seemed the last stage of exhaustion, and then they would be off in another wild scamper, their dusky bodies flitting through the bushes, disappearing and reappearing with equal suddenness.  Presently two girls of their own age, who had returned from the water-fetching, sprang out on them from ambush, and the four joined in one joyous gambol that lit up the hillside with shrill echoes and glimpses of flying limbs.  Comus sat and watched, at first with an amused interest, then with a returning flood of depression and heart-ache.  Those wild young human kittens represented the joy of life, he was the outsider, the lonely alien, watching something in which he could not join, a happiness in which he had no part or lot.  He would pass presently out of the village and his bearers’ feet would leave their indentations in the dust; that would be his most permanent memorial in this little oasis of teeming life.  And that other life, in which he once moved with such confident sense of his own necessary participation in it, how completely he had passed out of it.  Amid all its laughing throngs, its card parties and race-meetings and country-house gatherings, he was just a mere name, remembered or forgotten, Comus Bassington, the boy who went away.  He had loved himself very well and never troubled greatly whether anyone else really loved him, and now he realised what he had made of his life.  And at the same time he knew that if his chance were to come again he would throw it away just as surely, just as perversely.  Fate played with him with loaded dice; he would lose always.

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