“I know, but the poor souls——Well,
I’m sure you will agree with me in one thing:
The chief task of a librarian is to get people to read.”
“You feel so? My feeling, Mrs. Kennicott,
and I am merely quoting the librarian of a very large
college, is that the first duty of the conscientious
librarian is to preserve the books.”
“Oh!” Carol repented her “Oh.”
Miss Villets stiffened, and attacked:
“It may be all very well in cities, where they
have unlimited funds, to let nasty children ruin books
and just deliberately tear them up, and fresh young
men take more books out than they are entitled to by
the regulations, but I’m never going to permit
it in this library!”
“What if some children are destructive?
They learn to read. Books are cheaper than minds.”
“Nothing is cheaper than the minds of some of
these children that come in and bother me simply because
their mothers don’t keep them home where they
belong. Some librarians may choose to be so wishy-washy
and turn their libraries into nursing-homes and kindergartens,
but as long as I’m in charge, the Gopher Prairie
library is going to be quiet and decent, and the books
well kept!”
Carol saw that the others were listening, waiting
for her to be objectionable. She flinched before
their dislike. She hastened to smile in agreement
with Miss Villets, to glance publicly at her wrist-watch,
to warble that it was “so late—have
to hurry home—husband—such nice
party—maybe you were right about maids,
prejudiced because Bea so nice—such perfectly
divine angel’s-food, Mrs. Haydock must give me
the recipe—good-by, such happy party——”
She walked home. She reflected, “It was
my fault. I was touchy. And I opposed them
so much. Only——I can’t!
I can’t be one of them if I must damn all the
maids toiling in filthy kitchens, all the ragged hungry
children. And these women are to be my arbiters,
the rest of my life!”
She ignored Bea’s call from the kitchen; she
ran up-stairs to the unfrequented guest-room; she
wept in terror, her body a pale arc as she knelt beside
a cumbrous black-walnut bed, beside a puffy mattress
covered with a red quilt, in a shuttered and airless
room.
“Don’t I, in looking for things to do,
show that I’m not attentive enough to Will?
Am I impressed enough by his work? I will be.
Oh, I will be. If I can’t be one of the
town, if I must be an outcast——”
When Kennicott came home she bustled, “Dear,
you must tell me a lot more about your cases.
I want to know. I want to understand.”
“Sure. You bet.” And he went
down to fix the furnace.
At supper she asked, “For instance, what did
you do today?”
“Do today? How do you mean?”
“Medically. I want to understand——”
“Today? Oh, there wasn’t much of
anything: couple chumps with bellyaches, and
a sprained wrist, and a fool woman that thinks she
wants to kill herself because her husband doesn’t
like her and——Just routine work.”
