Adam Bede eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 820 pages of information about Adam Bede.

Adam Bede eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 820 pages of information about Adam Bede.

Seth was unable to reply, and they walked on in silence.  At last, as they were nearly at the yard-gate, he said, “Well, Dinah, I must seek for strength to bear it, and to endure as seeing Him who is invisible.  But I feel now how weak my faith is.  It seems as if, when you are gone, I could never joy in anything any more.  I think it’s something passing the love of women as I feel for you, for I could be content without your marrying me if I could go and live at Snowfield and be near you.  I trusted as the strong love God has given me towards you was a leading for us both; but it seems it was only meant for my trial.  Perhaps I feel more for you than I ought to feel for any creature, for I often can’t help saying of you what the hymn says—­

     In darkest shades if she appear,
     My dawning is begun;
     She is my soul’s bright morning-star,
     And she my rising sun.

That may be wrong, and I am to be taught better.  But you wouldn’t be displeased with me if things turned out so as I could leave this country and go to live at Snowfield?”

“No, Seth; but I counsel you to wait patiently, and not lightly to leave your own country and kindred.  Do nothing without the Lord’s clear bidding.  It’s a bleak and barren country there, not like this land of Goshen you’ve been used to.  We mustn’t be in a hurry to fix and choose our own lot; we must wait to be guided.”

“But you’d let me write you a letter, Dinah, if there was anything I wanted to tell you?”

“Yes, sure; let me know if you’re in any trouble.  You’ll be continually in my prayers.”

They had now reached the yard-gate, and Seth said, “I won’t go in, Dinah, so farewell.”  He paused and hesitated after she had given him her hand, and then said, “There’s no knowing but what you may see things different after a while.  There may be a new leading.”

“Let us leave that, Seth.  It’s good to live only a moment at a time, as I’ve read in one of Mr. Wesley’s books.  It isn’t for you and me to lay plans; we’ve nothing to do but to obey and to trust.  Farewell.”

Dinah pressed his hand with rather a sad look in her loving eyes, and then passed through the gate, while Seth turned away to walk lingeringly home.  But instead of taking the direct road, he chose to turn back along the fields through which he and Dinah had already passed; and I think his blue linen handkerchief was very wet with tears long before he had made up his mind that it was time for him to set his face steadily homewards.  He was but three-and-twenty, and had only just learned what it is to love—­to love with that adoration which a young man gives to a woman whom he feels to be greater and better than himself.  Love of this sort is hardly distinguishable from religious feeling.  What deep and worthy love is so, whether of woman or child, or art or music.  Our caresses, our tender words, our still rapture under the influence of autumn sunsets, or pillared

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