Adam Bede eBook

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“I thought they said th’ young mester war took ill last night,” said sour old John, the groom, at dinner-time in the servants’ hall.  “He’s been ridin’ fit to split the mare i’ two this forenoon.”

“That’s happen one o’ the symptims, John,” said the facetious coachman.

“Then I wish he war let blood for ’t, that’s all,” said John, grimly.

Adam had been early at the Chase to know how Arthur was, and had been relieved from all anxiety about the effects of his blow by learning that he was gone out for a ride.  At five o’clock he was punctually there again, and sent up word of his arrival.  In a few minutes Pym came down with a letter in his hand and gave it to Adam, saying that the captain was too busy to see him, and had written everything he had to say.  The letter was directed to Adam, but he went out of doors again before opening it.  It contained a sealed enclosure directed to Hetty.  On the inside of the cover Adam read: 

“In the enclosed letter I have written everything you wish.  I leave it to you to decide whether you will be doing best to deliver it to Hetty or to return it to me.  Ask yourself once more whether you are not taking a measure which may pain her more than mere silence.

“There is no need for our seeing each other again now.  We shall meet with better feelings some months hence.


“Perhaps he’s i’ th’ right on ’t not to see me,” thought Adam.  “It’s no use meeting to say more hard words, and it’s no use meeting to shake hands and say we’re friends again.  We’re not friends, an’ it’s better not to pretend it.  I know forgiveness is a man’s duty, but, to my thinking, that can only mean as you’re to give up all thoughts o’ taking revenge:  it can never mean as you’re t’ have your old feelings back again, for that’s not possible.  He’s not the same man to me, and I can’t feel the same towards him.  God help me!  I don’t know whether I feel the same towards anybody:  I seem as if I’d been measuring my work from a false line, and had got it all to measure over again.”

But the question about delivering the letter to Hetty soon absorbed Adam’s thoughts.  Arthur had procured some relief to himself by throwing the decision on Adam with a warning; and Adam, who was not given to hesitation, hesitated here.  He determined to feel his way—­to ascertain as well as he could what was Hetty’s state of mind before he decided on delivering the letter.

Chapter XXX

The Delivery of the Letter

The next Sunday Adam joined the Poysers on their way out of church, hoping for an invitation to go home with them.  He had the letter in his pocket, and was anxious to have an opportunity of talking to Hetty alone.  He could not see her face at church, for she had changed her seat, and when he came up to her to shake hands, her manner was doubtful and constrained.  He expected this, for it was the first time she had met him since she had been aware that he had seen her with Arthur in the Grove.

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