—Do so my poor child. The devil has
led you astray. Drive him back to hell when he
tempts you to dishonour your body in that way—the
foul spirit who hates our Lord. Promise God now
that you will give up that sin, that wretched wretched
sin.
Blinded by his tears and by the light of God’s
mercifulness he bent his head and heard the grave
words of absolution spoken and saw the priest’s
hand raised above him in token of forgiveness.
—God bless you, my child. Pray for
me.
He knelt to say his penance, praying in a corner of
the dark nave; and his prayers ascended to heaven
from his purified heart like perfume streaming upwards
from a heart of white rose.
The muddy streets were gay. He strode homeward,
conscious of an invisible grace pervading and making
light his limbs. In spite of all he had done
it. He had confessed and God had pardoned him.
His soul was made fair and holy once more, holy and
happy.
It would be beautiful to die if God so willed.
It was beautiful to live in grace a life of peace
and virtue and forbearance with others.
He sat by the fire in the kitchen, not daring to speak
for happiness. Till that moment he had not known
how beautiful and peaceful life could be. The
green square of paper pinned round the lamp cast down
a tender shade. On the dresser was a plate of
sausages and white pudding and on the shelf there
were eggs. They would be for the breakfast in
the morning after the communion in the college chapel.
White pudding and eggs and sausages and cups of tea.
How simple and beautiful was life after all!
And life lay all before him.
In a dream he fell asleep. In a dream he rose
and saw that it was morning. In a waking dream
he went through the quiet morning towards the college.
The boys were all there, kneeling in their places.
He knelt among them, happy and shy. The altar
was heaped with fragrant masses of white flowers;
and in the morning light the pale flames of the candles
among the white flowers were clear and silent as his
own soul.
He knelt before the altar with his classmates, holding
the altar cloth with them over a living rail of hands.
His hands were trembling and his soul trembled as
he heard the priest pass with the ciborium from communicant
to communicant.
—Corpus DOMINI NOSTRI.
Could it be? He knelt there sinless and timid;
and he would hold upon his tongue the host and God
would enter his purified body.
—In VITAM ETERNAM. Amen.
Another life! A life of grace and virtue and
happiness! It was true. It was not a dream
from which he would wake. The past was past.
—Corpus DOMINI NOSTRI.
The ciborium had come to him.
Sunday was dedicated to the mystery of the Holy Trinity,
Monday to the
Holy Ghost, Tuesday to the Guardian Angels, Wednesday
to saint Joseph,
Thursday to the Most Blessed Sacrament of the Altar,
Friday to the
Suffering Jesus, Saturday to the Blessed Virgin Mary.
