His sin, which had covered him from the sight of God,
had led him nearer to the refuge of sinners.
Her eyes seemed to regard him with mild pity; her
holiness, a strange light glowing faintly upon her
frail flesh, did not humiliate the sinner who approached
her. If ever he was impelled to cast sin from
him and to repent the impulse that moved him was the
wish to be her knight. If ever his soul, re-entering
her dwelling shyly after the frenzy of his body’s
lust had spent itself, was turned towards her whose
emblem is the morning star, brightandmusical,
tellingofheavenandinfusingpeace, it was when her names were murmured softly
by lips whereon there still lingered foul and shameful
words, the savour itself of a lewd kiss.
That was strange. He tried to think how it could
be. But the dusk, deepening in the schoolroom,
covered over his thoughts. The bell rang.
The master marked the sums and cuts to be done for
the next lesson and went out. Heron, beside Stephen,
began to hum tunelessly.
MY EXCELLENT FRIEND BOMBADOS.
Ennis, who had gone to the yard, came back, saying:
—The boy from the house is coming up for
the rector.
A tall boy behind Stephen rubbed his hands and said:
—That’s game ball. We can scut
the whole hour. He won’t be in till after
half two. Then you can ask him questions on the
catechism, Dedalus.
Stephen, leaning back and drawing idly on his scribbler,
listened to the talk about him which Heron checked
from time to time by saying:
—Shut up, will you. Don’t make
such a bally racket!
It was strange too that he found an arid pleasure
in following up to the end the rigid lines of the
doctrines of the church and penetrating into obscure
silences only to hear and feel the more deeply his
own condemnation. The sentence of saint James
which says that he who offends against one commandment
becomes guilty of all, had seemed to him first a swollen
phrase until he had begun to grope in the darkness
of his own state. From the evil seed of lust all
other deadly sins had sprung forth: pride in
himself and contempt of others, covetousness in using
money for the purchase of unlawful pleasures, envy
of those whose vices he could not reach to and calumnious
murmuring against the pious, gluttonous enjoyment of
food, the dull glowering anger amid which he brooded
upon his longing, the swamp of spiritual and bodily
sloth in which his whole being had sunk.