Complete Project Gutenberg John Galsworthy Works eBook

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Complete Project Gutenberg John Galsworthy Works eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 6,432 pages of information about Complete Project Gutenberg John Galsworthy Works.
future.  The present with this dark cruelty of a decision, one way or the other, seemed impossible.  He realised now so much more keenly what his mother felt than he had at first; as if the story in that letter had been a poisonous germ producing a kind of fever of partisanship, so that he really felt there were two camps, his mother’s and his—­Fleur’s and her father’s.  It might be a dead thing, that old tragic ownership and enmity, but dead things were poisonous till time had cleaned them away.  Even his love felt tainted, less illusioned, more of the earth, and with a treacherous lurking doubt lest Fleur, like her father, might want to own; not articulate, just a stealing haunt, horribly unworthy, which crept in and about the ardour of his memories, touched with its tarnishing breath the vividness and grace of that charmed face and figure—­a doubt, not real enough to convince him of its presence, just real enough to deflower a perfect faith.  And perfect faith, to Jon, not yet twenty, was essential.  He still had Youth’s eagerness to give with both hands, to take with neither—­to give lovingly to one who had his own impulsive generosity.  Surely she had!  He got up from the window-seat and roamed in the big grey ghostly room, whose walls were hung with silvered canvas.  This house his father said in that death-bed letter—­had been built for his mother to live in—­with Fleur’s father!  He put out his hand in the half-dark, as if to grasp the shadowy hand of the dead.  He clenched, trying to feel the thin vanished fingers of his father; to squeeze them, and reassure him that he—­he was on his father’s side.  Tears, prisoned within him, made his eyes feel dry and hot.  He went back to the window.  It was warmer, not so eerie, more comforting outside, where the moon hung golden, three days off full; the freedom of the night was comforting.  If only Fleur and he had met on some desert island without a past—­and Nature for their house!  Jon had still his high regard for desert islands, where breadfruit grew, and the water was blue above the coral.  The night was deep, was free—­there was enticement in it; a lure, a promise, a refuge from entanglement, and love!  Milksop tied to his mother’s...!  His cheeks burned.  He shut the window, drew curtains over it, switched off the lighted sconce, and went up-stairs.

The door of his room was open, the light turned up; his mother, still in her evening gown, was standing at the window.  She turned and said: 

“Sit down, Jon; let’s talk.”  She sat down on the window-seat, Jon on his bed.  She had her profile turned to him, and the beauty and grace of her figure, the delicate line of the brow, the nose, the neck, the strange and as it were remote refinement of her, moved him.  His mother never belonged to her surroundings.  She came into them from somewhere—­as it were!  What was she going to say to him, who had in his heart such things to say to her?

“I know Fleur came to-day.  I’m not surprised.”  It was as though she had added:  “She is her father’s daughter!” And Jon’s heart hardened.  Irene went on quietly: 

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