Complete Project Gutenberg John Galsworthy Works eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 6,432 pages of information about Complete Project Gutenberg John Galsworthy Works.

Complete Project Gutenberg John Galsworthy Works eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 6,432 pages of information about Complete Project Gutenberg John Galsworthy Works.

He went into the chemist’s for a bromide; and, while the man was mixing it, stood resting one foot like a tired horse.  The “life” he had squeezed out of that fellow!  After all, a billion living creatures gave up life each day, had it squeezed out of them, mostly.  And perhaps not one a day deserved death so much as that loathly fellow.  Life! a breath—­aflame!  Nothing!  Why, then, this icy clutching at his heart?

The chemist brought the draught.

“Not sleeping, sir?”

“No.”

The man’s eyes seemed to say:  ’Yes!  Burning the candle at both ends—­I know!’ Odd life, a chemist’s; pills and powders all day long, to hold the machinery of men together!  Devilish odd trade!

In going out he caught the reflection of his face in a mirror; it seemed too good altogether for a man who had committed murder.  There was a sort of brightness underneath, an amiability lurking about its shadows; how—­how could it be the face of a man who had done what he had done?  His head felt lighter now, his feet lighter; he walked rapidly again.

Curious feeling of relief and oppression all at once!  Frightful—­to long for company, for talk, for distraction; and—­to be afraid of it!  The girl—­the girl and Keith were now the only persons who would not give him that feeling of dread.  And, of those two—­Keith was not...!  Who could consort with one who was never wrong, a successful, righteous fellow; a chap built so that he knew nothing about himself, wanted to know nothing, a chap all solid actions?  To be a quicksand swallowing up one’s own resolutions was bad enough!  But to be like Keith—­all willpower, marching along, treading down his own feelings and weaknesses!  No!  One could not make a comrade of a man like Keith, even if he were one’s brother?  The only creature in all the world was the girl.  She alone knew and felt what he was feeling; would put up with him and love him whatever he did, or was done to him.  He stopped and took shelter in a doorway, to light a cigarette.  He had suddenly a fearful wish to pass the archway where he had placed the body; a fearful wish that had no sense, no end in view, no anything; just an insensate craving to see the dark place again.  He crossed Borrow Street to the little lane.  There was only one person visible, a man on the far side with his shoulders hunched against the wind; a short, dark figure which crossed and came towards him in the flickering lamplight.  What a face!  Yellow, ravaged, clothed almost to the eyes in a stubbly greyish growth of beard, with blackish teeth, and haunting bloodshot eyes.  And what a figure of rags—­one shoulder higher than the other, one leg a little lame, and thin!  A surge of feeling came up in Laurence for this creature, more unfortunate than himself.  There were lower depths than his!

“Well, brother,” he said, “you don’t look too prosperous!”

The smile which gleamed out on the man’s face seemed as unlikely as a smile on a scarecrow.

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