Complete Project Gutenberg John Galsworthy Works eBook

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Complete Project Gutenberg John Galsworthy Works eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 6,432 pages of information about Complete Project Gutenberg John Galsworthy Works.

George answered stoutly: 

“Gracie’s upset, of course, but she’ll soon be all right.  You mustn’t let it come between you.  The thing you’ve got to keep steadily before you is that life’s a huge wide adaptable thing.  Look at all these people!  There’s hardly one of them who hasn’t got now, or hasn’t had, some personal difficulty or trouble before them as big as yours almost; bigger perhaps.  And here they are as lively as fleas.  That’s what makes the fascination of life—­the jolly irony of it all.  It would do you good to have a turn in France, and see yourself in proportion to the whole.”  He felt her fingers suddenly slip under his arm, and went on with greater confidence: 

“Life’s going to be the important thing in the future, Nollie; not comfort and cloistered virtue and security; but living, and pressure to the square inch.  Do you twig?  All the old hard-and-fast traditions and drags on life are in the melting-pot.  Death’s boiling their bones, and they’ll make excellent stock for the new soup.  When you prune and dock things, the sap flows quicker.  Regrets and repinings and repressions are going out of fashion; we shall have no time or use for them in the future.  You’re going to make life—­well, that’s something to be thankful for, anyway.  You’ve kept Cyril Morland alive.  And—­well, you know, we’ve all been born; some of us properly, and some improperly, and there isn’t a ha’porth of difference in the value of the article, or the trouble of bringing it into the world.  The cheerier you are the better your child will be, and that’s all you’ve got to think about.  You needn’t begin to trouble at all for another couple of months, at least; after that, just let us know where you’d like to go, and I’ll arrange it somehow.”

She looked round at him, and under that young, clear, brooding gaze he had the sudden uncomfortable feeling of having spoken like a charlatan.  Had he really touched the heart of the matter?  What good were his generalities to this young, fastidiously nurtured girl, brought up to tell the truth, by a father so old-fashioned and devoted, whom she loved?  It was George’s nature, too, to despise words; and the conditions of his life these last two years had given him a sort of horror of those who act by talking.  He felt inclined to say:  ’Don’t pay the slightest attention to me; it’s all humbug; what will be will be, and there’s an end of it: 

Then she said quietly: 

“Shall I tell Daddy or not?”

He wanted to say:  “No,” but somehow couldn’t.  After all, the straightforward course was probably the best.  For this would have to be a lifelong concealment.  It was impossible to conceal a thing for ever; sooner or later he would find out.  But the doctor rose up in him, and he said: 

“Don’t go to meet trouble, Nollie; it’ll be time enough in two months.  Then tell him, or let me.”

She shook her head.  “No; I will, if it is to be done.”

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