Beyond eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 451 pages of information about Beyond.

Beyond eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 451 pages of information about Beyond.

Summerhay, who loved Gyp, was not tired of her either physically or mentally, and even felt sure he would never tire, had yet dallied for months with this risk which yesterday had come to a head.  And now, taking his seat in the train to return to her, he felt unquiet; and since he resented disquietude, he tried defiantly to think of other things, but he was very unsuccessful.  Looking back, it was difficult for him to tell when the snapping of his defences had begun.  A preference shown by one accustomed to exact preference is so insidious.  The girl, his cousin, was herself a gambler.  He did not respect her as he respected Gyp; she did not touch him as Gyp touched him, was not—­no, not half—­so deeply attractive; but she had—­confound her! the power of turning his head at moments, a queer burning, skin-deep fascination, and, above all, that most dangerous quality in a woman—­the lure of an imperious vitality.  In love with life, she made him feel that he was letting things slip by.  And since to drink deep of life was his nature, too—­what chance had he of escape?  Far-off cousinhood is a dangerous relationship.  Its familiarity is not great enough to breed contempt, but sufficient to remove those outer defences to intimacy, the conquest of which, in other circumstances, demands the conscious effort which warns people whither they are going.

Summerhay had not realized the extent of the danger, but he had known that it existed, especially since Scotland.  It would be interesting—­as the historians say—­to speculate on what he would have done, if he could have foretold what would happen.  But he had certainly not foretold the crisis of yesterday evening.  He had received a telegram from her at lunch-time, suggesting the fulfilment of a jesting promise, made in Scotland, that she should have tea with him and see his chambers—­a small and harmless matter.  Only, why had he dismissed his clerk so early?  That is the worst of gamblers—­they will put a polish on the risks they run.  He had not reckoned, perhaps, that she would look so pretty, lying back in his big Oxford chair, with furs thrown open so that her white throat showed, her hair gleaming, a smile coming and going on her lips; her white hand, with polished nails, holding that cigarette; her brown eyes, so unlike Gyp’s, fixed on him; her slim foot with high instep thrust forward in transparent stocking.  Not reckoned that, when he bent to take her cup, she would put out her hands, draw his head down, press her lips to his, and say:  “Now you know!” His head had gone round, still went round, thinking of it!  That was all.  A little matter—­except that, in an hour, he would be meeting the eyes of one he loved much more.  And yet—­the poison was in his blood; a kiss so cut short—­by what—­what counter impulse?—­leaving him gazing at her without a sound, inhaling that scent of hers—­something like a pine wood’s scent, only sweeter, while she gathered up her gloves,

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