The Dark Flower eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 300 pages of information about The Dark Flower.

“Oh, Mark!  What is it—­what is it?  Anything is better than this!”

Perhaps it was the smile, perhaps her voice or eyes—­but something gave way in Lennan.  Secrecy, precaution went by the board.  Bowing his head against her breast, he poured it all out, while they clung, clutched together in the half dark like two frightened children.  Only when he had finished did he realize that if she had pushed him away, refused to let him touch her, it would have been far less piteous, far easier to bear, than her wan face and her hands clutching him, and her words:  “I never thought—­you and I—­ oh!  Mark—­you and I—­” The trust in their life together, in himself, that those words revealed!  Yet, not greater than he had had—­still had!  She could not understand—­he had known that she could never understand; it was why he had fought so for secrecy, all through.  She was taking it as if she had lost everything; and in his mind she had lost nothing.  This passion, this craving for Youth and Life, this madness—­call it what one would—­was something quite apart, not touching his love and need of her.  If she would only believe that!  Over and over he repeated it; over and over again perceived that she could not take it in.  The only thing she saw was that his love had gone from her to another—­though that was not true!  Suddenly she broke out of his arms, pushing him from her, and cried:  “That girl—­hateful, horrible, false!” Never had he seen her look like this, with flaming spots in her white cheeks, soft lips and chin distorted, blue eyes flaming, breast heaving, as if each breath were drawn from lungs that received no air.  And then, as quickly, the fire went out of her; she sank down on the sofa; covering her face with her arms, rocking to and fro.  She did not cry, but a little moan came from her now and then.  And each one of those sounds was to Lennan like the cry of something he was murdering.  At last he went and sat down on the sofa by her and said: 

“Sylvia!  Sylvia!  Don’t! oh! don’t!” And she was silent, ceasing to rock herself; letting him smooth and stroke her.  But her face she kept hidden, and only once she spoke, so low that he could hardly hear:  “I can’t—­I won’t keep you from her.”  And with the awful feeling that no words could reach or soothe the wound in that tender heart, he could only go on stroking and kissing her hands.

It was atrocious—­horrible—­this that he had done!  God knew that he had not sought it—­the thing had come on him.  Surely even in her misery she could see that!  Deep down beneath his grief and self-hatred, he knew, what neither she nor anyone else could know—­ that he could not have prevented this feeling, which went back to days before he ever saw the girl—­that no man could have stopped that feeling in himself.  This craving and roving was as much part of him as his eyes and hands, as overwhelming and natural a longing as his hunger for work, or his need of the peace that

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